Last Two Words

Chapter 2

It's either

You float or you sink.

There's no middle ground.

this chapter is dedicated to ate R.

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" Pa it's not true. Sa kotse ako natulog. Kumakatok ako kagabi, nag tatawag rin but no one is answering me. " Pag depensa ko sa sarili ko. My cheek is still throbbing from that one hell of a slap " Nakita pa nga ako ni Ann sa kotse kaning umaga. Hindi ba, Ann? " Lumingon ako sa nakababata kong kapatid, na siyang nag didilig ng mga halaman nang makagising ako kaninang alas sais ng umaga sa kotse. Nanginginig ang aking mga kamay, hindi ako maka hinga.

" Totoo ba Ann? " Tanong ni Papa kay Ann

" Hindi ko po alam " Sagot niya at namilog ang mga mata ko. Nakita niya ako kanina tumingin pa siya saakin.

I heard Sadie snorted, napatingin naman ako sakanya na siyang nag pipigil ng tawa.

" I told you Pa kung saan saan nanaman nag punta yan. I'm pretty sure she was out there dinking herself into oblivion " She sid with a smirk. Saan naman ako pupunta? And I don't drink myself into oblivion

" You are such a disappointment Grabrielle. Nakaka hiya ka. Hindi mo ba naririnig yung mga sinasabi ng church members tungkol sayo? I already told you to stay away from your friends. Pero sumasama ka pa rin. Nabulag ka na " He said. I don't care what they say about me when I know my truth. My friends aren't bad. People are just jealous that they'd destroy the good that othe people have.

This is the part where things are going to be pointless.

Sabi ng lola, hanggat sa ako yung may pang unawa, ako yung uunawa. Hanggat sa ako ang may pang intindi, Ako yung iintindi. At sa oras na ito, ako yung may pasensya at pang unawa. So i walked out of the room.

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My hands are still shaking. All the things they said earlier this morning kept playing in my head like a piece of awful music on repeat.

I'm a dissapointment
Nakaka hiya ako.

And then there's these contents and designs needed for the upcoming projects. Oh and not just that! I still have to fiz the papers para sa training ng mga employees ng company kung saan ako nag w work, I'm not even the HR manager pero they want me to handle everything e wala naman ito sa job description ko. Jusko! Hindi ko na alam kung anong uunahin kong ayusin. It's so hard to use my brain knowing na dadalawang brain cells na lang ata ang natira sa dami ng iniisip ko.

" Juliet Gabrielle Celestial. Wala pang alas sais pero yung liwanag mo lumubog na. Inunahan mo pa yung araw. Anong meron? " Sky popped in out of nowhere. Giving me a kiss on my head. Tinignan ko lang ang arrogante niyang mukha at hambog na postura. " Stop scowling, tinatakot mo yung mga possible buyers natin "

I rolled my eyes at him.

" Ok if you don't wanna talk about it. Fine. Let's talk about me. I did not dress up para lang di mo ako bigyan ng compliment " He spun and posed to show his fine clothes that complimented his Moreno looks.

" What a handsome man. You look expensive. Ukay yan no? " I know ukay when I see one. Wayback in high school lahat ng damit ko galing sa ukay. May kaya naman kami but it helps me save money and nailalabas ko yung sense of fashion ko sa ukay. It's cheap but I'd look expensive. I'm actually wearing one right now.

" Yes! " He exclaimed at sa isang iglap nawala ang ngiti sa kanyang labi " Honestly , my budget is a bit tight right now. My last pay went to tithes and bills. I have extra to pay for my rent but I gave it to a stranger who needed it more than I do. And now three months rent unpaid pati na rin yung installment ng motor ko baka kunin na yun from me, I'm heavily relying on faith and these paintings. Continuously praying that someone will buy them tonight " he said with a deep sigh as we walked around the garden where all our paintings are displayed.