Styles Games {h.s} |Editing soon|

Twenty-Eight

Harry

I'm not afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of myself in the dark. It was quiet, a place so known for danger but yet was so peaceful to me.

This would be another moment where I would've sneaked out while putting my clothes on. I couldn't wake up the next morning and see the mess I made the night before.

It was like my need wasn't met but it was and it was my fault. I didn't have to drag anyone else into my self destruction but I did.

I was wounded and broken. I was hurt and lonely. I was afraid of seeing the world in color when I've only known black and white.

It was only when looking at her when I ever felt such love. She was beautiful and made for me. It wasn't forced or fake. It was real, something I've never known before.

She wasn't a girl that salted my wounds. She wrapped them with care and warmth. I had gone so long without her that I fooled myself into thinking I didn't need her.

I do. I needed her like the stars needed the night. I was only ever myself around her.

One arm laid under her head as a pillow and my other was around her waist. I felt too deeply the night we spent together. A feeling that was captivating and calming.

I thought two broken souls couldn't love. I thought that with Elena but that is not true. I just didn't love Elena.

She needed me as much as I needed her but together, we are writing out a wonderful but chaotic adventure.

The word girlfriend was not enough. I would make her my wife today but that was a comment I know would scare her. It was all new to us both but I've never been more sure about anything.

I loved her.

I'm in love with her.

I will still be in love with her tomorrow, next week, a month and forever from now.

If I have her with me, nothing could hurt her. I wouldn't let anybody hurt her. They couldn't crash my world.

She was my best friend and girlfriend all in one.

I don't know which fucking wishing well got me here but I thank them to heaven. I wasted so many pennies on being happy that it finally came true.

"Stop staring at me" I blink out of my daze thinking about her to see her looking at me. The candle lights gave me just enough to see her eyes.

"Hard not to when you look like that"

"Why are you awake?" She questions me before sliding her hand up and down my face. It felt like heaven.

She was home

"Move in with me"

"Wait, what?" I feel her body tense up.

"You heard me. Move in with me. It'll be fun!" I press a kiss to her forehead.

"I can't do that" I feel my heart breaking.

"Why?" I couldn't hide the hurt in my voice.

"We wouldn't really be living together. You'll be gone most of the time"

"I can come back as much as you wanted"

"Your schedule is based on your work. You can't change that, we both know that."

"Are you not ready for that?"

"Are you?"

Yes.

I'd marry you right now and make you mine forever.

"I'm ready for anything with you." I didn't realize how fast I was moving compared to her.

It was so unlike me but god, I saw something with this woman. I feel it, I can touch it, I'm so close to it.

"I don't know Harry. I'm scared." She admits.

"I know. Feelings are scary." I rub her arm.

"I've never felt like this with anyone.. ever."

I judged idiots who fell too fast. I'd roll my eyes in disgust at the fact they could just hand their hearts over so fast but here I was, ready to risk it all.

"I'll take it as slow as you want. I'll still be here." My words seem to comfort her.

"I want you to meet my best friend"

"Theresa?"

"No. Her name is carny. She's a bitch but you'll love her."

"Isn't she the one that forced you to go out to the bar that night?"

"Yup" she laughs.

"Thank you carny! My savior!" I tease while planting tiny kisses around her face.

She props herself higher on my arm before swirling circles with her fingers on my upper arm that moved higher up her waist.

"It would be really annoying to live with me."

"It wouldn't be as bad since we both have jobs and you can do whatever you want here since you'll be here more." She shakes her head.

"I love how you decorated it. I've always felt at home here. I just don't want to move in and things go wrong for us because they are going so well and I don't want them to be messed up." Her voice cracks.

I cradled her tight against my chest, mumbling quietly it's okay.

"How about we give it a test run?" I look down at her.

"What do you mean?"

"Come here after work every night and when I'm back this weekend I'll come in and we can try it out." She kisses my chest. She was so small compared to me.

"That doesn't seem like a bad idea."

"No because I can see you naked." I tease. We only fell asleep 5 hours ago but I felt better now.

I felt her shift before she straddles me. I immediately sank my hands into her hips. I loved her body. I will praise it till I die.

I was already hard under her as she started grinding against my bulge.

"I was thinking...." she trails off.

"You like kinky stuff right? And I have enjoyed the handcuffs a lot. I want to try more. I've never done anything like that and it feels really good with you. It is fun." As if I couldn't be anymore turned on.

She was talking about the handcuffs.

In my defense, it's been 15 days and the woman I deeply love is on my dick grinding and I can feel just how thin her pjs are. Then, she hits me with that.. I'm going to explode.

"Like what pretty girl?" I move her hips with my hands.

"Umm... nipple clamps, more ass smacking, and maybe even a sex swing."

I'm going to fucking die!

"Harry? Are you okay?" After a moment of silence her soft voice wakes me up from my death trance.

"We can do that. Whatever you are comfortable with me doing, we can do together." I feel her scoot with her ass down backwards before stopping once she passes my bulge.

She starts palming over my boxers before tugging them down.

"I missed you so fucking much" She looks up at me as if she was asking for permission, I nod before she wraps a hand around my base.

"Holy fuck" I get out before she starts teasing my head with her tongue.

"15 days was too long without you." She mumbles before taking my dick in her mouth.

"Baby, please." I begged as I ran my hands through her hair to grab a handful.

"I'm going to take care of you now." She gets out before I lay my head against my pillow.