the secret life of the american soccer player.

"im not", "you are"

monday: alex again began her day with her face by the toilet, pam had found her this time with wide eyes almost forcing alex to stay home but alex refused.
"i can't mom, i have a massive essay due today, i'm just stressed about that. i'm not sick" alex played it off. today was also the day alex was supposed to get her period.
"you threw up again huh?" sydney asked as they pulled into the school parking lot, "i don't want to talk about it sydney" alex grumbled.
alex was thankful that both tobin and dom were gone for most of the week until thursday at their college visit for ohio state, she couldn't bare to be around tobin right now, especially when what sydney was thinking felt realer and realer everyday.

tuesday: this time alex didn't throw up until she got to school, she didn't make it to her first period. still no period.

wednesday: alex didn't go to school, she never made it out of her bathroom. her box of tampons remained untouched.

thursday: alex again felt like shit which left her treating tobin like shit who barely got to school in time for practice.
"hey!" tobin called after her favorite striker watching as she walked to her car before tobin could see her. alex turned and waved before trying to walk off again until alex caught up and caught her arm.
"i have to go tobin" alex said trying to walk away from the kicker, "alex? are you okay?" she asked concerned as she followed the striker to her car, "yes i'm fine. jesus" alex yelled.
"okay, i've been patient with you all damn day, even when you never texted me back, but this alex, is getting to much. i haven't seen you in like a week and all i wanted was to see my girlfriend. it's whatever. get some sleep" tobin said letting alex go, alex sat in her car and zoomed her way home where she laid in her bed softly crying through her headache.
"here sweetie, i brought you this warm cloth, it should help" pam gently placed the cloth on alexs forehead, pam sat with her as alex silently cried, rubbing her legs soothingly.
something was wrong with her daughter.

friday: alex missed the first half of school along with sydney.
by 5 am sydney was in alexs window holding her bestfriend as she cried, sydney had went to the 24 hour drug store before coming over.
she held alexs hand as she peed on the stick.
she held alex when she read the stick, tomorrow they would be headed to clinic.

sydney held alexs hand the whole appointment, during which it was found, alex was having a baby.
they spent the next hour in sydney's car as alex cried her eyes out. she went in for her last class before giving up and going home, she needed her mom.

"sweetie what's the matter?" pam asked, alex sobbed into her moms shoulder, pam sat with alex on the bed gently rubbing her back waiting for alex to talk.
"please don't be mad" alex whimpered, "honey?" pam asked again, "mommy i'm- i'm pregnant" alex choked out and again sobbed.
"oh alex" pam soothed, "i'm so sorry. i'm so so sorry" alex cried again, "dads gonna hate me, tobins gonna hate me" alex sobbed again. "sweetie, i need you to tell me what happened okay, so i can help you. alex i love you and i am here for you" pam said and alexs door creaked open and alexs dad stood in the doorway.
"daddy?" alex whimpered, "i'm here baby girl, i'm always going to be here" he soothed as he sat next to her, "are you mad at me?" she asked from her moms shoulder.
"no alex, i'm upset for you but not at you, everyone makes mistakes" he whispered and held her to his chest calming her down.
"a month ago, me and tobin got in a really bad fight and i thought we broke up so i went to a party and drank too much and i hooked up with servando carrasco" alex pushed her head in her hands, "oh honey" pam soothed, "how am i going to tell tobin? she's gonna hate me forever" alex cried again. pam was at a loss for words and all she could do was hold alex and tell her everything was going to be okay.

saturday- sydney accompanied alex as they went to servandos house, alex had texted him saying they needed to talk.
he stood outside waiting for the two girls, sydney stayed in the car per alexs request.