the secret life of the american soccer player.

shes my bestfriend

monday:
"al, i mean you could try again, you two haven't spoken all week i mean maybe she's cooled off by now" sydney thought out loud, "honestly syd, try for what? there's no way in hell we'd been in a relationship again" alex said honestly, "i mean i don't know, maybe at least friends?" sydney asked with a shoulder lifted.
"anyway. come on, we're going to be late" sydney said pulling alex out of the car, the two walked in shoulder to shoulder like always. the talking hadn't died down at all really but the seniors all just shrugged it off at this point, most of the juniors too.
alex looked at sydney with wide eyes when she stopped by dom and tobins lockers, "it'll only be a second" sydney whispered as she walked over to dom. alex watched tobin as she faced her locker pulling out her books, when she saw the footballer get ready to turn she looked down at her hands and pretended to fix her rings.
alex looked up slightly and saw tobin leaning against her locker looking down at her phone. alex knew tobin wouldn't respond but she saw the opportunity and took it, she reached in her back pocket for hers and immediately headed into her messages.

alex: i miss you.

she looked up at tobin and saw her face twitch lightly, alex tried again.

alex: i'm so so so sorry.

alex watched as tobin clicked her phone off and looked at alex with hard eyes.
"i'm going to class D" tobin said sternly trying to push past her ex girlfriend, alex grabbed tightly onto tobins forearm and looked up into her eyes. "tobin?" alex asked but came out more as a squeak, tobin tried to ignore the burning feeling from alexs touched. she had tried to ignore the feeling of missing the striker, she only didn't think about her when she was working out, which was all she did these days, but now standing infront of her, looking at how sad her eyes were she wanted nothing else than to pick her up and keep her all to herself.
tobin didn't move, "can just talk, please" alex whispered out, tobin looked at alexs eyes again softing slightly and alex caught it before tobins face went hard and she ripped herself from alexs grip and walked to class.
alex leaned back against tobins locker completely defeated, she really thought she had tobin.
alex and sydney sat in home room when alexs phone buzzed.
tobin <3: do you have a 6th period today ?
alex had never gotten around to changing the heart by tobins name, it had hurt to much everytime she tried.
alex: no she's giving us a study hall.
alex had lied, she did in fact have a 6th period today but alex would meet whatever tobin needs at this moment.
tobin <3: meet me at the bleachers after lunch.
alex: okay
alex showed sydney the texts who squeezed alexs knee in congrats, "remember al, don't jump right in, get her to be your friend again first okay?" sydney reminded her, "i know" alex nodded with a sad smile.

alex anxiously sat during lunchtime, what would tobin want to talk about, how was she going to react?, so much was going through alexs head that she barely heard the bell ring.
"al, you should go" sydney nudged her, "yeah. i'll see you at practice" alex gave her a small smile, "hey alex?" sydney called and alex turned, "keep your head up babes" she reminded her.

alex grabbed a spot on the bleachers while she waited for tobin, after a few minutes alex wasn't sure she was going to show. right as alex was about to leave quite furious, she saw the tan footballer jog out onto the field and to the bleachers.
she calmly walked up the bleachers and took a seat about 6ft from alex, "sorry. i had to grab something" tobin apologized but couldn't look at alex.
"it's okay, thanks for meeting me" alex said looking over at tobin who just nodded her head.
"um what do you want to know?" alex asked unsure of where to start, "why" tobin asked to time making eye contact with alex, alex watched as tobins eyes weren't hard anymore, they were vulnerable. tobin broke the contact and dropped her head in her arms squeezing the back of her neck like she does when she's anxious.
"over the summer, when you were at camp and we got into that fight, i thought we had broken up. i was so pissed at you and angry that i went to a stupid party with sydney, i got really drunk and servando was kinda just there." alex finished off the lame story waiting for tobin to speak.
"yeah well he's had a thing for you since forever, not suprised he jumped on the opportunity" she breathed out.
alex ignored her statement,
"tobin you have to know how sorry i am, i swear to you i thought we were broken up and i just was so angry" alex said again.
"yeah i get that. but you still fucked my teammate" she said bitterly.
"i know. god i know." alex said as she tried to choke back her tears, "was he convinient? or did you do it to get back at me?" tobin asked.
"no i would never do that. god i am so so sorry tobs. so sorry" alex couldn't stop as she cried in her hands.
"alex" tobin tried but alex was too focused on trying to brush her tears away, tobin saw the younger girl and before her mind could react she was already moving.
tobin gently wrapped and hand around alexs head and pulled her towards her shoulder, tobin pulled a bit harder and gently guided alexs head into her shoulder while her other hand wrapped around the forwards back holding her tight.
alex sobbed into tobins shoulder while tobin held her tightly, alexs tears and sniffles soon stopped, tobin held her for a few more seconds before alex pulled away and tobins arms fell, "thank you for that. i know you hate me" alex whispered.
"i don't" tobin said softly, "i could never hate you" tobin said again looking at alexs eyes.
"heath! back off of my baby mama!" tobin could hear servandos voice, both girls cringed at the word choice.
"are you guys together now or?" tobin asked,
"no god no, i had to tell him and he's the one who told the whole damn school" alex bit out, "i can go kick his ass?" tobin offered but alex softly shook her head.
"no, it's okay. thanks though" alex giggled softly, "thanks again for this, i'm sorry tobs, i just want you to know. i love you" alex said getting ready to stand up, "wait" tobin said as she grabbed alexs elbow.
"i'm sorry for everything i said in the hallway, i don't hate you. if you ever need anything you can call me" tobin said, "thanks tobs" alex said looking down at her feet before looking up and giving tobin a small wave and heading off to the soccer room.