First walk, first talk, first eat, first treat
the parents crowd surrounds me with their child crossing the street
Lovely drawing the tree
with no you as the stem of the twig
Penning the long name that you made
on the paper that grandma gave
Peculiarities hard to answer
as my heart beats faster
Should I tell the truth or make it short
short as the time you were my comfort
Truth, in this way, truly hurts
the lump when I say those words
When you showed up for the first time,
is when you completely disappeared in my life
The amount of explanation, wasted opportunities,
unnecessary insecurities, that's a part of my growth without your duties
Bizarre how you made me feel
but never in my wheel
my heart for you became steel
I wanted to hate you, blame you, despise you
in reality, I was only eager to ask you
How. how's life without me?
without missing me, maybe you forget about me
Just a pun, the way I spoke
nobody knows, I get to choke
Nineteen years to realize, not you that I despise
that actions I hate, missing actions that you can't fake
Can't say the word to call
you were never there for me at all
"lily-rose-carnation"
- orchid
