Every once in a while I get a chance to
Just float.
Peaceful and relaxed
I feel better, I think everything is going to be
Just fine.
Happy and carefree
But then a wave hits
Silent, immediate, deadly
I feel like I have lost control of
My actions, my thoughts, my emotions
The waves turn into storms
Rough and long enduring
They try to push me into the ocean
Icy, dark, and lonely
It seems to get worse after every new storm
And I'm afraid.
I'm afraid next time the storm won't pass,
I'm afraid the waves will win.
I'm afraid to not be able to float,
Because it is those small moments of
Peace, joy, and safety
That keep me fighting against the
Cold, terrifying, loneliness
That is my own mind.
My own thoughts,
My own waves, storm, and ocean
My own depression.
My own fear.
I am afraid of myself.
YOU ARE READING
Pain will never end
PoetryThese are just thoughts from my head..things I've said.. some are poems about how I feel... some are just things i have typed out let me know if you like them.. or if you can relate... or if you can help me..or let me know if you need some help or j...
