Behind Closed Doors

A kiss out in the open

Ty

My feet are killing me. The shift got majorly busy after Jamie and her family went and when I returned from my break, I felt somewhat refreshed. That power nap done me the world of good and it helped to sustain myself until the end of the shift. Thankfully, I was on the ten o'clock finish and the night staff were taking over afterwards.

I'm still a bit weary around Ronnie. After our spat and then her spat with Jamie, she has been unusually quiet. It almost felt that she was plotting something but then I would shake my head and scold myself for letting myself have an overactive imagination. Getting into my car, I let out the biggest sigh of relief, knowing that my shift was finished, and I was heading home for a well-deserved shower and a night of rest.

I didn't lie to Jamie about not being a great sleeper, I have never been since that night it all came crashing down around my ears. Hearing the cell shut tight behind me, I cowered in the corner of my new cell, hearing other women shouting in the background, not comprehending how everything spiralled out of control, my control.

Riley. She was my downfall, and she could have stopped this madness from happening. But she chose not to, and here I was, banged up for a crime that I never committed. All I ever did was love her, look after her and this was my repayment. Now I'm forever looking over my shoulder, unsure of other people's intentions and I honestly cannot keep living my life on the edge. That itself, was partly the reason why I caved into what I was feeling for Jamie last night. I needed a sense of normality back into my life. Jamie isn't high maintenance, not like Riley was.

Jamie. She is the complete opposite of what Riley ever was. Jamie is thoughtful, compassionate, kind, a great lover and puts you first over herself. Riley, well as you can imagine, she was the complete opposite. Always take, take, take. She finally took away my freedom, something I will never forgive her for. I'm not sure what I would do if our paths were to ever cross again, but never again will I trust anyone with my full heart.

Wandering around this property, which I now call home, seems bare. A lack of my personality. But in hindsight, I am always weary that this can be over in a second and I could be escorted out of here and taken to another safe house. I'm not sure how long I am supposed to be in hiding for, but they did say until the threat of the bounty on my head was lifted, they had to keep me safe. Thankfully, Trev, who has worked with the police closely for years, is empathetic in my plight to get my feet back on the ground.

Of course, Trev knows my real name for the documents required for my tax and national insurance purposes. I point blank refused to change my name legally, so they had to come to some sort of compromise and so Ty was born. It came from my name, well my barrage of nicknames from my name. Christina. I preferred Chris, or Chrissie but over time, they battled with me with either Tina or Ti, but I chose Ty instead, I wanted the 'i' gone from it.

Jamie was introduced to Tina the night we hooked up and it didn't feel right. I wanted to say Chris but that nagging doubt at the back of my mind, wouldn't settle, so opted for the name that was effectively thrown upon me as my new identity.

Lisa, my best friend since school, supported me through it all. My arrest, my trial, my incarceration and now my freedom. Yes, she has trouble calling me by my new name, but she was still my biggest supporter in life, and I would honestly be lost without her. Getting her to come out last night was easy, but getting her to behave, is another thing. After all, she made sure that she made her girlfriend jealous and in turn, made Jamie jealous after her revelations last night when she thought Lisa was my girl.

I'm not entirely sure what made me drop my guard when it comes to Jamie. Yes, we know that we had a seriously hot one-night stand then we became neighbours. The attraction was still there, after all, I kissed her after borrowing her hose, which I've still to return. Maybe it's her constant presence in my life, or those eyes that just draw you in and you feel safe within close proximity of her. Smiling to myself as the warmth overtakes my body as I think of Jamie. Closing my eyes, with Jamie in my thoughts, I drift off sleep.