Never Saw That Coming (completed but I'm still fixing some parts)

Uncomfortable (Lisa POV)

7 days have past. I know today jennie will be back in the country after a week of vacation cause I've been counting the day. But I'm not sure if she still want to see me. We all know the reason why she's staying with me all this time. I was like a tool that helped her to heal. Honestly I'm scared, that 2 weeks might just mean nothing to her. I'm afraid she will stop seeing me after she recovered. It is such a torture when you're hoping for something that is unclear. Will she stay or will she leave? I don't even know.

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I was just done attending evening class today and currently on my way home. I feel anxious the whole time. This waiting game is just so nerve wrecking and I wish it could stop. To be honest, I was hoping to see jennie today. I miss her a lot. But, I'm disappointed. Soon as I arrived at my place, she was nowhere to be seen. I assumed she didn't longer need me. How am I suppose to do? I already falling hard into her. How do I get rid of this uninvited feeling? Its slowly tearing me apart.

I'm so devastated, how come I fall in love so easily. Why her? I can't fall in love with this girl. Us just impossible. She will never feel the same. I'm frustrated by my own fate. Now I regret for helping her out. I shouldn't let her come into my life. I sit alone in the kitchen while thinking hard, why all of this happening to me?

Somehow the sound of the bell ringing changed my mood instantly. I know that must be jennie. I can feel it. She's here to see me. I'm so hype. Immediately I ran to open the front door. My instinct was right. Its jennie. She is standing in front of me with her gummy smile on her face. Wait. This is not a dream right? I just keep staring at her. Waiting for her next responds. "Lisa? don't say you didn't know me" she started to talk. I pinched my arm just to check if this is legit, yup this is real. I smile softly at her. "You're back" suddenly I feel sad cause I can't pour all of my love to her. I wish she's not straight. But I covered it with a smile. She then hugged me tight and laughed softly "I miss you" she whispered. This feels so right. I enjoyed it. "I miss you too midget" I replied back as I closed my eyes.

The fact that I'm falling in love with her makes me uncomfortable all the time. I mean I can't be too sweet nor too nice to her cause she might found out my real feelings. I try my best to act natural though it's difficult. One word that could actually describe about my situation. Trap. I was in a trap and there's no way out.

A few seconds later she let me go and I started to ask. "How's paris?". She smile at me while we continued walking inside the living room. "It was just okey. I wish you were there" she answered. "can I sleep over?" she continued.

I was panicking, I mean she want to sleep here already? What if she asked me to sleep on the same bed. It will be hard for me to behave. I try composed myself and answered to her as natural as possible "you know you will always welcome here" but deep down inside I was anxious. I need to make an excuse if she invited me to the bed.

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"Lisa want to sleep with me tonight?" she asked. I was right. Thankfully I already have a strong reason to reject her offered. "I don't think thats a good idea jennie. Honestly I'm a little tipsy, so there's a possibility that I might grope your breast, so goodnight" I explained to her while grinning. Her expression looks flat. But smile to me after that. "Hmm well, I'll talk to you tomorrow then. Goodnight too". She replied before she walked back heading to the bedroom. I took a deep breath and felt quite relieved.

This is going to be tough. I'm going to have a hard time hiding this feeling from her. I'm screwed.