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Throughout the class I felt as though someone was watching me.

I lift my head as I look around the room to find everyone busy with their own work or in a conversation.

I brush it off and return my focus to my paper.

The bell soon rings but I ignore it as I focus on the last few questions.

Once I'm finish I get up before politely saying goodbye to the teacher and walking to my locker.

As I walk into the hall way I see a familiar figure facing the opposite direction talking to the girl who's locker was beside mine.

As I reach my locker I clear my throat.

He looks over his shoulder to see me as he gives me a smirk but he doesn't make any effort to move.

"Can you move?" I mumble slightly annoyed.

"Whatever." He shrugged.

He pushes his body off my locker diverting his attention back to the girl.

I found it quite irritating that this had happened twice today.

Stupid jock.

I make sure I grab the rest of my books for the day, double checking I had everything I needed before walking off to my other classes.

Once it was lunch time I went and sat at my normal table.

I felt eyes on me but I ignore it as I tried to drown out my worries with the sound of music blasting through my headphones but it didn't work.

As much as I tried to ignore my surroundings I couldn't.

Everything suddenly became overwhelming as I found my breathes becoming deeper while my eyes began to water.

I knew what would happen if I didn't get out of here now.

I quickly stood to my feet and ran out the back entrance to the football fields.

No one came out here since it was too cold at this time of year but I didn't mind.

I sat on the bleachers as I hid my face in my hands while tears roll down my cheek. I take deep breathes finding it hard to breath while I try to calm myself down.

After about 5 minutes I'm finally calm enough to go inside but I didn't want to.

I was quiet happy out here.

I had my first anxiety attack when my mum died and it just got worse from there.

I hated being like this.

I wish I could be normal.

Why do I have to be so worthless?

My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of footsteps and talking coming towards me.

I hide my face with my hair unconsciously while I look down at my hands, hoping I won't draw attention to myself.

Why were they even out here anyway?

I heard the familiar voices of a boy and a girl.

I didn't need to look up to know it was Jack and Becca.

Becca was the most popular girl in school. She was absolutely stunning and I've never had a problem with her but I knew what she could be like when you got on her bad side.

Jack and Becca seemed to be arguing about something but they were too far away for me to hear not that I cared.

I didn't want to hear there problems and frankly it was none of my business.

I decided to put my headphones in to drown out their shouting.

As I pick a song I make the mistake of looking over a Jack to find his gaze already on me as Becca yells at him.

We keep eye contact for a moment before I snap out of it.

I grab my bag before walking behind the bleachers to get inside without disturbing them.

I finally make it inside I sigh in relief.