The Awkward Boy's Crush (BxB)

Chapter 15

"I wish I'd met you sooner."

"Me too."

Kai stood beside me smiling at me with his arm around my shoulder. I can feel a gentle breeze and a gentle gaze on me.

We're watching the sunset together.

I feel so content inside. I feel warm and fuzzy inside. The scenery seems brighter than it did then. All I want to do is be here, with Kai. Just like this.

"Kai..."

"Hmm Marc." He was still admiring the view, I was as well but my view was different. He finally looked at me. I feel another feeling bubbling inside me. Is it... anticipation?

"...what? What's with the intense staring?" He said, smiling at me. This agitated me even more, that smile.

I feel happy, scared, nervous and excited all at the same time. I feel at peace yet restless at the same time.

We kept eye contact for a few seconds. Could be even a minute.

I can't think. I have no time to rationalise my actions. I can't understand why I feel this way. Kai...

The next series of events happened in such a mess that I can't even comprehend what I did or am doing right now. Everything happened in slow motion, still too fast for my brain to process anything. I was moving on my own, is this something I wanted all along?

My left arm at the small of his back, my right hand holding his face. And my lips on his...

I couldn't dwell in the moment or revel in the feeling for long.

Suddenly the floor starts shaking. Our world, crumbling away. I tightened my hold on his back. I don't want to leave.

I looked ahead. We're standing at the edge. There's no railing. I looked back at Kai. He is looking at me but I can't make out what his expression means. But I know I have a pleading look on my face. I don't want to go.

And then the floor crumbled from beneath our feet.

I'm falling.

I jolted awake, my heart beating out of my chest. I'm covered in cold sweat. Falling from the roof in dreams is the worst. I knew I shouldn't have looked down from the edge then. It was so scary. I clutched my chest and my heart was still beating out of pace. It took me a minute to calm down.

But wait. Wait at damn minute.

The hell did I do?!!

No no no no no. Why?

A thousand thoughts started racing in my head. It became too hard to keep up. I gripped my hair in frustration.

I touched my lips. Did I really just... do I really want to do that sub consciously?

*gasp* "Can't be..."

"Maaarc wake up. It's 10:30 already." I heard my mom shout from the corridor.

"I'm up." I screamed back.

"Have some cereal or something. I'm going out to buy some grocery."

"Okay."

Let's just have some breakfast and think then.

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I'm sitting on my bed, thinking for the past half hour, I guess. My head hurts already. The music usually helps me relax but it's not doing much now. Tired of overthinking, I plopped down.