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chapter 4

'Oh shut up Y/F/N.. you know that I'm straight'

I said and this sounded so weird in my head. Sure, I loved Sarah, but maybe not in this way..

'Yeah yeah I know, but now we are talking about THE Sarah Paulson.. Come on, you always used to say that you were so gay for her. And I always notice the blush and the smiles every time she comes up in a scene when she plays in a movie or a show. Even before you meet her. And finally yesterday you were so so happy while you were dancing with her.. God knows for how long I haven't see you smiling and laughing like this, and I was twice as happy for you Y/N. Don't do anything that you think is wrong and end up regretting it.. Follow your heart, and I'll be always here to support whatever choice you make' I really loved this girl. She has helped me go through so much.. She was the first person I met when I moved here and I am so so glad that I did.

'Y/F/N, thank you so much for everything.. You are going to make me cry' I said and I hugged her 'but I really don't know.. I mean, what would my parents think about me?'

'Your parents love you so much Y/N. They really do. Even if they don't support lgbt community, they will definitely support you'

My parents were always cool with this stuff. My dad has asked me many times if I was gay or something because I always used to say that I just hate boys and that they are immature. I always told him no, but he used to say that they would still love me, no matter who I choose to be.

'Okay.. But what about the age difference? What if it affects Sarah's career?' I know how annoying paparazzi can be sometimes.. and I don't want Sarah to lose her job which she loves

'You are 19 years old for god's sake! You are an adult! It's your choice and no one can tell you otherwise..' I agreed

'Anyways.. I should take a shower.. I can still smell the cigarette odour in my hair from yesterday.. you can stay here and cook something if you are hungry'

'I am going to order some pizza' she said grabbing the phone to order

'Can you save me some? I'm pretty hungry too'

'Didn't your girlfriend make you pancakes? I checked her Instagram story and now everyone is wondering who Sarah Paulson's 'favourite girl' is' she said smirking

'SHUT UP Y/F/N SHE IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND. AND SAVE ME SOME PIZZA'

'I can't promise anything..' She was still laughing and I left the room rolling my eyes

I went back to my room, grabbed a towel and some fresh clothes and got into the shower. I was thinking about lots of things, but first and foremost I was thinking about the situation between me and Sarah.. I don't know if I could imagine myself in a relationship with her.

I got out of the shower, put on my clothes and a towel over my head and I went to the living room again, where Y/F/N was. I turned on my phone and decided to text Sarah

You: Hi. How are you?

She replied after a few seconds. Wow that was fast

Sar ❤️: Hey! I am okay I guess, what about you? ❤️

A red heart. Again. That woman is going to drive me crazy even over the smallest things

You: I am okay too. Y/F/N is here and we are eating some pizza. It's weird, but I feel like I already miss you!

Sar ❤️: That's so nice! Say hi to her from me. And I honestly miss you too!

'Sarah says hi' I said to Y/F/N