part 4: mikes humiliation

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by deadp0ets_

by deadp0ets_

(this is now from mikes perspective, so you will be mike for this story!:)also, this does include touchy subjects such as suicidal thoughts and the f slur. I am lgbt, so i can say it, but just a little tw for those sensitive to it.)

*At school, right after will ran off*

"Woah, What the hell just happened" I think aloud to myself. "Did- did will just confess his love to me...I- Why did i turn him down. He's probobly so embarrassed now. But, why did i say I wasn't into him. I know i am. So why didn't i say so? Ugh, I'm so stupid!" "Hey, Mike!" i look behind me to see y/n walking towards me, looking confused. "Oh,hey y/n" I say, trying to hide the fact that i'm upset, but they see right through my act. "Hey, you look upset what's wrong- Oh!" y/n says, sounding quite sad. "What do you mean, Oh? I didn't even say anything." i say, confused. "Ok, then what happened, says y/n Why did Will run off? Did something happen?" "No,no, nothing" i say, trying to cover up my embarrassment. I can feel tears swelling up in my eyes. "Hey, I think I know what happened, Mike. Will told me about his feelings for you. Is that why you're upset? Because you feel bad that you don't feel the same way?" y/n asks. "Oh, well since you know, i guess it won't hurt if i tell you anything." I say. I try to swallow the lump in my throat so i can tell y/n everything, But i just can't. "Ok" i choke out. "Will told me he's in love with me and has been since 5th grade...and i said i didn't feel the same way, But..." "But you do feel the same way?!..." y/n whispers. At this point i can't take it anymore. I start to sob and flop right into y/n's arms. "I DO! I DO FEEL THE SAME! AND I HAVE FOR SUCH A LONG TIME! I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE Y/N. I SHOULDVE TOLD WILL THAT I DID FEEL THE SAME WAY, BUT IM TOO MUCH OF A PUSSY TO EVEN DO THAT!" I cry out. I'm pretty sure i'm being loud, because people start staring at me. "Mike" y/n says. "It's gonna be ok. Trust me. I'm sure Will will understa-"
Suddenly, a yell cuts y/n off. "Hey, Frogface!" it's Troy, the biggest bully at school. "Did i hear that right! Mike Wheeler, a Queer? Now, I always knew your buddy Will was a fairy, But you, didn't see that coming. "What do you want!" y/n yells at him, defending me. "Oh, nothing, nothing." "Then scram" I look behind me and see dustin and lucas running up to us. "Go find some other poor kids to torture." Lucas screams at him. At this point, the whole school is staring at us, and i'm still sobbing. "Well, well, now that you give me attitude." Troy says, he sounds offended. "Everyone, Listen up! I just want you all to know, MIKE WHEELER IS A LITTLE (tw) FAGGOT!" "Oh my god. Oh my God." i think to myself. "I- I'm going to die right here, right now. I cant believe that just happened. Now everyone knows."
I don't know what to do, so I just run off, still sobbing. "Mike! Mike!" y/n calls out, running up to me. But i don't stop to talk to them. I just keep running. Behind me i hear Lucas yell"IM GONNA KILL YOU, TROY! YOU PEICE OF SHIT!"
I've been running for miles at this point. Finally, I stop at the quarry. Thoughts are racing through my mind 100 miles per hour. "Should I do It? I cant keep living after this. I'm going To jump. But if i do, my family will be devastated. And what'll happen to will, and my friends. I cant do it. But i have to. Stop being such a pussy. Do it. Do it." i walk up to the edge. Once I look down, i keep imagining myself hitting that water. Just the thought of that makes me sick, So, thankfully, i decide not to do it.
Still crying, i walk back to my house. Tonight, i'm finding Will and telling him how i feel.