Night Changes

Verse 4

𝙈𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩, 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙪𝙥 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙣
𝙎𝙝𝙚'𝙨 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩 𝙮𝙚𝙩
𝙃𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙣𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙜𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨

[Sav, okay ka lang?] - Kriesha.

"Okay lang ako, girls"

[We're just worried about you] - Diarra

"Ano ba kayo? I'm fine"

[I'm fine is the most used lie] -Gabby

"Hindi 'no! Sige na, tinatawag na ako ni Manang. " I closed my Ipad. I just ended our video conference call because I'm avoiding the topic. I don't want them to pity me.

Naging katawa-tawa ako sa school. My day would never be complete if I don't have something on my body. It's either liquid like water or juice, flour and egg.

Sinusubukan ng mga kaibigan ko ang tumulong pero ayaw kong pati sila madamay.

Lagi akong may dala na extrang pamalit para hindi na din magtaka ang mga tao sa bahay na madumi akong uuwi. I told mom and dad that school is perfectly fine.

I opened my instagram. Chase's post appeared first. It was a photo of Sera watching the sunset. Next, was the photo of them kissing and the other five photos are some of their memories together.

"Happy three years of love, baby. Thank you for being my bestfriend and my cutest girl at the same time. You were with me through my ups and downs. you were with me from the very beginning. I am so inlove with you. ILYSB"

I smiled bitterly. My heart swells but I still check his account. It was a slap to me that on those posts, it only shows that I have no space on his heart.

I kept scrolling through his feed until a certain picture caught my interest. It was a photo of their hand intertwined. Sera's hand had a ring on her ring finger.

"You're the only girl I wish to marry. I love you"

I guess I should stop loving him but how could I?
I tried to stop it a thousand times already but I can't. I grows too much like I would die if I don't love him.

I'll just have to keep all the pain to myself then. I love you Chase but I know it very well that you abhor me to the core.

🦋 Cheesecakes 🦋