Josh's Pov
I wake up and Nessa is still sound asleep. She is so beautiful. I never want to think about us breaking up again. I never want to watch that stupid video. I slowly get out of bed and walk downstairs. I grab my phone and turn it on. Maybe looking at texts and all that will spark some memories. I've tried so hard to avoid them because everybody says that if I read them all it will be too overwhelming. I need to though. I need to regain some memories. Even if I don't gain them back I still know what happened. I click on Anthony's messages first. It's talking about different video ideas. Then one texts catches my eye. "Sorry bro that your mom was acting so rude. Don't take it personal I think she is just mad that you're seeing Nessa again." What why would my mom be mean to Nessa? I sigh and click on Bryce's contact. Something about me being a simp. I roll my eyes. Then some other texts about videos. Then some more texts catch my eye. "Josh where are you?! Don't do anything stupid! We saw all the empty bottles!" What? Then another one. "Josh why wouldn't you forgive him? He was being nice. He gave you a nice car." What!!??? Ugh this is all just so confusing. I throw my phone on the couch and walk to the bathroom. Something makes me feel sick and I throw up in the toilet. Then visions appear in my head. A vision of Nessa kissing someone else. I can't see the someone else but I can see nessa. She looks so sad and she pulls away right after. What??!! What is going on? I throw up again and then I hear footsteps running down the stairs. "Josh are you ok?!" She yells. She runs up behind me and hugs me. I can feel sweat running down my forehead. I am breathing heavy and I feel a sudden urge to throw up again. I throw up again and then sit down fully. Nessa sits me against the wall and grabs a towel and wets it. She wipes my forehead and she looks so worried. "Are you ok?" She asks softly. "N-nessa?" I take a deep breath. "Yes?" She says softly while still wiping my face. "D-did we uh break up because you kissed someone else?" I ask. "No." She says and continues staring at me. She takes a deep breath. "We broke up because we needed time to focus on ourselves. After we broke up we took time to be away from each other. During that time.. I uh kissed someone that I shouldn't have. I really hurt you by doing that. I told you right away. Then after that one thing led to the other and um we got back together." She explains. "I-is that why my mom was being mean to you?" I ask. Her eyes widen. "Josh where did you get all this?" She asks confused. "I-i uh read some of my texts." I admit. "Josh why would you do that alone. You could have waited for me so at least I could have explained them more." She says. "I didn't know if you would let me so I decided to do it myself." I look down. She lifts my chin and kisses me. "Josh if you wanted to read your texts than I would have let you. I want you to be hopeful and happy." She says. I sigh and she continues to wipe my face to cool me down. "Now how about you brush your teeth and I make breakfast." She says. I nod and she leaves the restroom. I take a few breaths and stand up at the sink. I brush my teeth and then walk to the kitchen. "Can you tell me more stories?" I ask. She nods and sits a plate of waffles in front of me. She puts her plate across from me and sits down. She tells me about how we met and I wouldn't stop making moves on her. She tells me when we finally met in person. She tells me about all the drama that happened and why me and Bryce made that stupid distrack which is pretty good on my part. That Chase guy is a jerk. Trying to get with Nessa. Then she tells me that he was the guy that she kissed. I want to be mad at her but I guess my old self wasn't that mad at her since I got back together with her so I can't push myself to be mad at her. She tells me about the trip we took to my home town. How my mom was a total bleep. (If ykyk 😂) she talks about my friends and family. About how successful I am on Tiktok and YouTube. She talks about how I am the best big brother. She talks about Buddy my dog. She tells me about how excited I was when I surprised her. Telling me how happy I made her and how happy I still make her. Talking to me how worried she was when I was in the hospital. How worried all my fans were and how worried my friends and family were. How happy everybody was when I woke up. How even Chase texted Bryce just to tell him that he was happy to hear that I woke up. Which is news to me but I guess all of this is news to me. I love everything that comes out of her mouth. Reminding me how lucky I am to have her. Hearing about all the memories I have had and how happy I am to hear them. All I can do is eat my food and listen to my beautiful girlfriend tell me story after story. I can't help but smile. When we are about to clean our plates we hear a knock at the door. Nessa jumps in surprise and I laugh. She walks to the door and I hear lots of chattering. I look towards the door and my eyes widen. There are so many people at the door that I just want to go hide in my room. I have to be strong though. I take a deep breath and walk towards Nessa. I wrap my arms around her waist and look at all the people at the door. The only one that looks familiar is a girl with curly hair that I saw with Anthony the other day.
_________________________________________Had to put a picture of Juice Wrld at the top. R.I.P It's been a year and ik we all miss him. 🥺😁
