HER FEAR

3.....of a rush.

" Being in a rush is not a time to make decisions. In case you do, get ready for anything. "
                                                            ella_michy.

Chapter 3.
Past.

She had been called. She didn't want to go down to her horrible mother. At least she still had her room. Her safe haven. Her 11 year old self really despised her mother. Her mother didn't treat her right. She didn't even get to go to school. She wanted to meet friends like her. But no. Her mother said she would waste her money. Or you could say the money she inherited from her husband.

She was called again. And again. And again. Little her knew that her mother would come up soon if she didn't go down. It wouldn't be pleasant. She wondered why her mother was even calling her. Maybe to tell her to clean up the kitchen after bringing friends over. Yh she should just go.

And so she got down from her bed and went out of the room, descending the stairs to the living room.
What or rather who she saw made her stop a little then she went to stand in front of them. She dare not sit.  There were consequences. Her mother was leaning on someone. She didn't know who he was. But the stink eye he gave her made her dread this man her mother was leaning on.

" What kind of waste of space is this, darling?" aaand  these were the first words that come out of his mouth. Immediately she knew she was about to suffer. What had she done at all that her mother had to bring such a person home ?

" It's that obvious, dear ? " her mother said scowling at the little girl in front of her. She felt sick. Yes indeed. The little girl felt absolutely sick. She could throw up right there and then.

But instead she just muttered a small "okay"  and rushed back upstairs to her room. She didn't throw up.

Her.

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12 : 00pm..

Yes, indeed I was counting the seconds before the dreadful meeting. Of course you thinking. Oh it's not that bad ! But here's the case where I'm not normal and have a lot of fears and it just so happens that I'm having a meeting with only men. Hope u get it. You don't ? I've never had a meeting before. Haha funny right ? A CEO who has never had a meeting. But the thing is there hasn't been a need for a meeting.

Then all of a sudden a meeting has been scheduled for me with that company. Seriously, what does he want with me ?

It's 12:00 ,you know.

Shut up brain.
OK right I'm talking to myself now. I'm so anxious and nervous and scared and all other words you could use. Like seriously I'm going to meet a thousand men in the conference room. And I would have really cancelled if I could. But you see, I cannot exactly cancel this meeting because it's not mine. He scheduled the meeting and since he is higher than me I have to attend. The only difference is that the meeting will be done in my company. He'll probably behave as if he owns the place. Jeez, let me just get this done and over with.

Then I looked at the clock and goes what ?
It was  12:25pm. Guess the universe really did hate me.

Oh please, you were the one thinking and dreading the meeting instead of getting a move on.

Will you shut up for once.

No yo-

Seriously if I follow you I will be later than I am already. I get up, pick my laptop and get a move on to the conference room. It's my company. Might as well relax. I think as I walk leisurely to the room.