SIXTEEN- BJYX

5. Secret World.

In this world, you will always have someone who motivates you to be the person you are, making you want to stand strong always... for their sake.

There were two people in my world who I lived for. First of all, there was Dad. And there was this man who once said "Be brave, buck teeth and stand strong."

I smiled as I traced my fingers on those words. I'd do it everytime. And without knowing why, I felt that there was a lot more behind the smiles of this man.

How he came to be the person in my world was a coincidence. With every classmate of mine who constantly mentioned who was the current Hot celebrity, it was impossible to not know him. Xiao Zhan.
I was 13 and I became drawn to him when I learnt the coincidental preferences we had. Three years had already passed walking with him.  The sunny smile that he would never fail to give, his gentle demeanor... I was whipped. He was favourite person after Dad.

The things that I couldn't tell say out loud to Dad, the feelings I suppressed during the day... would be in my evening talks to the giant poster above my bed.
Dad didn't know the existence of the poster which I had, covered with a curtain. After obtaining the rights of a 13 year old, no one was allowed in my room again and it was after that - that I brought it to my abode.

Tonight wasn't any different. I drew the baby blue curtains and sat leaning on the poster without saying anything, because I didn't know what to say. I only strangely wanted to lean onto him.

I wondered just how strong he was, when he had no one... how he could be the same when he was happy and when he was sad. And after what seemed to be ages, I felt comforted just leaning onto him...