Just Pure Pain (A Kakashi Hatake Fanfiction)

Chapter Four

Yea, sorry for the wait. I kind of wish you could put up a pole on wattpad. Since I really want to know who wants me to keep Hinata in, and who doesn't. So yeah, here's the story. Oh and one more thing, this is gonna be a shorter one.

I woke up with a start.

The clang of my headband hitting the ground rang through my skull. It continued ringing at an abnormal pitch, and at this point, I could tell it was my mind.

The vast darkness moved across my thoughts enveloping them slowly, and almost in unison with the ringing increasing in volume.

I tried my best to keep myself in the conscious world, but my mind won the fight. I could tell that I was no longer awake in the real world. It was dark for a second before a piercing light shone, and blinded my vision. 

For a second I accepted myself as dead and I would be going wherever the afterlife was.

But I knew with my luck that would definitely not be true.

I stared into what my mind was showing me. The dead body of Sakura. There was a large hole through her chest as if- no, this wasn't even possible to relate to anything. It was cleanly cut through and she probably died instantly with the lack of organs.

It all happened in such a flash I didn't even know what was going on. Whoev- no whatever killed them seemed to be taunting me, as if it was trying to make my life worse.

As an act of mercy, my mind pulled me out of the image and threw me into a sea.

When the word sea comes to you, what do you think of? A deep blue body of water, glistening in the sunlight, a clear reflection of world, an embodiment of tranquility and peace?

Not this one.

Definitely not this one.

It was pitch black and murky, and I couldn't see anything. You may say "Kakashi, then how can you tell that it's a sea? How can you tell that it's not just a dark room." First of all, shut up it's my mind. Second of all, and probably a more straightforward answer, I was drowning in it.

I couldn't breathe in it almost if like- well it was like water.

I woke up on the floor of my apartment in a spread eagle position. My body felt sore, like it was... what the hell, this had gotten to the point that it was comparable to anything. It was awful, I just didn't want to live anymore, but at the same time I wanted to move on.

Now I finally get the phrase the mind is a truly powerful phase. It was at least powerful enough to break me. Why don't I have control of my own mind? Why does my mind keep torturing me? Why is it even powerful? Why does i-

I've gone insane. I'm asking questions that will never be answered. I'm asking questions that were created by my mind that are directed toward my mind, and-

My head started to ache having these thoughts I didn't know what I was supposed to do today, and I didn't care, I just needed a lie down. I had enough of questions, I'm done with them forever.

But there was one I will keep.

How...How...How did they die?

Hello. Sorry for my hiatus, I just needed some time off from wattpad, and to get my academic self straight. This chapter is more of a fill in to show Kakashi's thoughts and that's why it is short. In longer and more normal chapters, I will focus more on him rebuilding himself, and less on his confusion and thoughts, and more on him moving on. So yea that was it, and this is your boi Scavneger signing off, have a great day my Shi- never mind that's cringe so have a great day my fellow anime lovers.