Just Pure Pain (A Kakashi Hatake Fanfiction)

Chapter Two

Disclaimer: Now Hinata is definitely not a main character in this book at all. She'll likely never pop up again in the beginning of this story and only once or twice during the end, just for character development for Kakashi and nothing else. Now, I'm still on thin ice with this idea, so I can just boot her out of the story any time. Remember that this story is actually not full ready. That is why I only put like a paragraph on her, so that I could boot her any time I wanted to. Sorry for the long author note, I won't make anything else longer.

I started to lose focus in my mind itself, and slipped away from reality. Whenever I have a flashback like this, I always go back to my young self's body. It's my mind's sick cruelty to give me the worst memories in my most insecure body.

I tried desperately to escape what was coming but failed. Around me floated the images of the dead people that were closest to me.

The thing is, no one really found out what had killed Sakura, Sasuke, and Naruto. All they knew was they each died to impossible standards.

I tried desperately to stop looking at the images, and closed my eyes. I knew I would break if I looked at their bodies again.

Never again will I look at their bodies again.

Judging on what I was thinking before I passed out. My mind was showing me Sakura's death. I tried to block all the sound out by closing my eyes, and putting my hands over my ears. That still didn't muffle out the sound of Sakura's scream, something that vibrated through my skull. The moment the killer blow was landed.

I took all my will to take off my hands from my ears, knowing it was over. The darkness faded, and I slowly returned to reality. My head was still ringing from Sakura's scream, all though I already knew that it was over.

I realized it was night time, and I had passed out for quite awhile. I decided to lay on the bed, and question my existence.

NO, I mentally slapped myself.

I decided to get some sleep anyway, since I wouldn't get any bad memories if I fell asleep without crying.

I slowly drifted off to sleep, as I finally cleared the last depressing thought on my mind...

The Next Morning

I woke up next morning and I felt still as tired as ever. I decided to just eat some food pills since I didn't feel like eating anything else.

To be honest, I didn't want to die. I don't think I would see them ever either way. I doubted everyone that had died who was close to me would be with me. If they were, I'm pretty sure they were mere empty shells of themselves. When I had died partially the first time, I learned that only biological parents and siblings end up full staying with each other after death. My father had also said, that I was only able to have a small glimpse at my old friends that were already dead.

I didn't want to live in this world either. I wanted to just wake up one day, and believe this was just one long scary dream. And live in the world where they were still alive.

Most of all, I didn't want emotions right now. They had battered me for basically my entire life, and they were the ones that turned my life into a miserable experience.

Pakkun did cheer me up, but recently he had stop showing up. He had said something along the lines that he couldn't interfere with me or something...

I thought back to what had kept me sane when I was a teenager. There was no way I was going to go back to the Anbu. Not in a million years. All that position gave me was more regrets.

I carried my day out depressed like usual, knowing that the Anbu were watching my every move.

I realized that I couldn't keep my life like this. I still had quite a lot of days left in me. It would be pathetic to go out like this.

I could just do a suicidal mission, and perhaps make myself useful. Heck, maybe even people would remember me then...

Kakashi, the depressed former shinobi, who sacrificed himself for the hidden leaf village.

The only part I liked was the last.

That was highly unlikely, and probably not going to happen.

So, right there and then, I realized.

I realized something that seemed impossible.

Something that was un-achievable.

I would have to move on...

Sorry for the extremely short chapter. I don't think I'm going to make much chapters with tons and tons of words. I might lengthen the chapters when I eventually rewrite this story way down the line... Due to the length of the chapters for these stories, I'm probably going to update this story way more often than my wings of fire stories which have way longer chapters. That was all, and this is ur boi Scavenger signing off, and have a great day my fellow shinobi lovers!