DJS ━ in which even with him by her side the hate still majorly affects her mental health ━ 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 2
𝗌𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖺𝗅 𝗍𝗈: 𝘲𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦
𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗱: july 19, 2020
𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗱: february 10, 2021
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°AUGUST 25, 2020 los angeles, calif.°
parking her car, ophelia took the keys out of the ignition as the car turned off and leaned back into her seat. she took a deep breath with her eyes closed and turned her head to look outside the window of her jeep.
she really wanted to drive her convertible. the weather in los angeles was beautiful like usual, but, it wasn't safe. and she preferred not to risk catching the corona virus while in the comfort of her car. so, the gorgeous black tesla convertible remains to wait to be driven outside of the parking garage at night and on the open road and in the streets of los angeles during the day.
she placed her black mask over her mouth, quickly pulling her long hair up into a messy bun. she held her iced coffee, phone, and keys in her hand as she got out of the car, fixing her sweatshirt and how it rested on her body.
ophelia kept her head down when walking toward the building, not for any specific reason, watching her small feet as she walked. when she entered the building, like always, beatrice was waiting for her at the entrance.
beatrice was a bit confused looking at ophelia's neutral, slightly sad looking eyes. neither of the women said anything as beatrice led the younger girl toward her office. upon walking inside, ophelia sat down on the couch, leaning back against it, and beatrice sat in her chair six feet away from ophelia, crossing her legs with her hands and notebook in her lap.
"alright, why the sad face, what's wrong?" beatrice asked, watching as ophelia brought down her mask to take a sip of her drink.
after swallowing, ophelia looked back at beatrice, shaking her head. "i don't know, i just feel sad today."
"you just feel sad?" beatrice asked for confirmation, tilting her head to the side.
"yeah," ophelia nodded, "nothing happened to make me sad today. i just woke up not feeling happy."
beatrice nodded, letting go of her pen. "well, let me tell you that feeling sad without a reason is not uncommon, and i can promise you that it is normal."
"it is," ophelia asked. she took another short sip of her coffee, crossing her legs into a modified lotus position.
"yes, there is even a word for it." beatrice explained, watching ophelia's eyes widen a bit. "i know, it's called lypophrenia. and it means a vague feeling of sadness without a cause."
ophelia began to quickly nod, "yeah, that's exactly how i feel."
beatrice chuckled slightly. "okay, well i'm glad that this is nothing that we have to worry about because it happens, and it's normal. it happens to me sometimes as well. it is going to happen every once in a while, unless the feeling lasts for a while, then we need to revisit this and talk about it."
"okay, got it," ophelia nodded. "this is the first time this has happened and possibly not the last but i'll do my best not to stress over it."
"good, now, tell me how you've been since our last session? i know your confidence has been getting better, but tell me about your mental state." beatrice picked up her pen once again before looking at ophelia once again with kind eyes.
"it's slowly but surely getting there. i feel like i should start saying the same thing to myself everyday to help me accept the fact that i'm not in the wrong and it doesn't matter what they all think of me." ophelia explained before taking a sip of her drink.
beatrice couldn't help but smile beneath her mask. "it makes me so happy to hear that you are starting to feel better ophelia. your growth is amazing especially over such a short amount of time."
"thank you," ophelia beamed, smiling her first real smile of the day.
"of course," beatrice nodded, "and i would be more than happy to help you figure out some daily affirmations to help you feel better mentally if that's what you feel like you need."
"thank you so much beatrice, i really do appreciate everything you're doing for me." ophelia was genuine and sincere, meaning every word.
"of course ophelia, it makes me feel good knowing i get to help you and others get to where they want to be," beatrice lightly laughed. "now for those daily affirmations."
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my love🧸 11:34 am
red is ur appointment over yet
yes sir i just got out
how was it
very good, i feel better than i did before i went
good baby
i'm rlly happy to hear that
now come over😁😁
do u have food at ur house
when do i not
idk u tell me
never. we always have food babe
ik😋
anyways.
come over pls i miss u
i miss u too
not us acting like we weren't together last night✋
