Our Messed Up Lives

5 The First

When I woke up I unwound myself from her. I got up and made food for us. When she woke up she wasn't to pleased. "Sean I'm not hungry."

"Babe." I sighed not meaning to call her that. "You need to eat. Just a little bit okay?"

"Okay."

She sat down and I served her a plate with Mac and Cheese with apple slices on it.

She ate slowly. I watched to make sure she at most of it.

"Now come here." I opened my arms up.

She walked over to me and fit perfectly inside them. I kissed her head. "You're staying with me for two hours. If you have to go to the bathroom I'm going with you. You're keeping this food in you."

She sighed.

I picked her up and brought her up to my room and later her on my bed.

I lied down next to her and brought the covers over us.

"I feel happy again." I said. "Knowing that I have you again. I knew there was something missing when I woke up in the hospital."

"Me too." She said. She started crying.

"Baby, what's wrong."

"I wish we could have everything back before the crash."

"We do."

"No we really don't."

"I'll give it back."

She shook her head. "You don't remember that part either. Do you?"

"Which part?"

"Never mind." She brought her lips to mine and we started kissing. Before I knew it we had, had sex. And I could still feel her nails digging into my back. The only thing that hurt me was the fact I wasn't her first.

When we were done, we laid on either side of the bed holding hands.

"Who was your first." I whispered.

She laughed a little. "You. Not from tonight though, a while back when you had just turned 16 and I was still 15."

"Damn. I'm sorry."

"It's okay it was my idea, you didn't want too."

"Probably because I didn't want to hurt you."

"It's been two hours can I go to the bathroom now?"

"Yes. But I'm coming with you."

"Why?"

"I'm going to take a shower."

"I'll join you." She said winking.

"I think you've had enough fun for one night."

"Please!" She wined.

I gave in easily. "Fine."

And I led her to the bathroom.

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That night she called her mom and told her she was staying at a friends, so she could stay with me. We slept in my bed cuddled together. Her sighing every time she breathed. I kissed her on her head then fell asleep.

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The next few days school was snowed out, so me and Emery hung out.

"Would you say we are officially dating?" I asked her one morning.

"No."

"Why not?"

"You haven't asked me yet."

I rolled my eye.

"Emery Watson. Will you be my girlfriend."

"Yes!" She said.

I kissed her, asking for entrance with my tongue. She excepted happily.

We were at the park at this very moment.

At children were laughing and babies were crying and birds were flying.

And there we were sitting on a bench, holding hands. Me wishing the moment would never end.