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Communication

25th November

*Harry's Pov*

As I slowly woke up to the sound of an alarm ringing, I felt a warmth around me and a slight weight on my chest. Jolting awake, I opened my eyes and saw Lillia, quietly sleeping, cuddled up to my chest with her arm wrapped around me. I gently picked up my phone to turn off my alarm and realised it was 12 pm; I had to be at the studio for 1 pm to film. I slowly wriggled out from underneath Lillia, trying not to wake her and went into the kitchen. Lillia had fallen asleep last night while we were watching a docuseries so I decided to stay the night.

I walked over to the cupboard, grabbed myself a glass and filled it with water. Lillia wasn't awake yet so I decided to sit by the breakfast bar while I checked my phone. Josh had texted saying that today we were filming a Sidemen version of 'Tipping Point', so, I had to get changed before I went to the studio. I decided it was easier to get an Uber from Lillia's to mine and then force Cal to drive me to the studio. After ordering the Uber, I sneaked back into Lillia's room to grab the rest of my stuff. I quietly peered around the door to find Lillia was still asleep. She looked so calm and peaceful, laying quietly on her own. I sat down onto the edge of the bed and took a strand of hair out of her face. I ran my fingers through her hair, slowly stroking her temple with my thumb. She started to stir, opening her eyes slowly until she's fully awake. 'Hey,' I whispered, still stroking her temple.

'Hi,' she smiled as she slowly sat up to face me.

'You fell asleep last night so I thought it was easier if I just stayed the night,' I rambled.

'I know,' she giggled, 'I woke up around 2 am and realised you were still here.'

'Oh nelly,' I laughed, 'well, I have a Sidemen shoot at 1, so I have to go, but I'll text you.'

'Yeah- ye, ye, yeah, yeah,' she repeated, 'that's fine, go, I don't want to make you late.' She started twiddling her hair in between her fingers.

'Okay, yeah, well - uh, bye,' I stuttered. I leant in to hug her but as her hands were in her hair, my arms awkwardly wrapped around her body. Lillia starts laughing as I break away; my face starting to turn red.

'You're so fucking awkward,' she laughs, 'come here.' Our eyes lock as she softly grabs my face, pulling me closer; my lips parting as I lean in, kissing her gently. Her arms slowly wrap around my neck, pulling us closer, making our kiss much more passionate. I don't know what came over me, but I slowly push her back on the bed, her legs opening as I get between them. I use my left hand to prop myself up and graze her cheek with my right hand, gently squeezing the side of her neck. I slowly trail my hand down the right side of her body, stopping at her bare thigh. My thumb strokes the inside of her thigh as she lets out a small moan. I pull away panting, trying to speak, I say, 'Wait, we can't - not yet anyway, I'm sorry, I-'

She lets out a sigh of relief. She looks directly into my eyes, not breaking the eye contact, she starts, 'Harold, fuck, I'm kinda glad you said that I don't want to rush this at all.' I pull myself off her, sitting down beside her. As she sits up to face me, she says, 'look, I don't know, I'm serious about this and I never thought I'd be saying that but I am. Yeah? I just can't rush things, I'm a really intense person, I know,' she giggles. 'But like I hate labels. I like to really get to know somebody in every aspect before I make it official. Like the 'label',' she says while making air quotes with her fingers, 'of boyfriend and girlfriend shouldn't change anything in the relationship... Do you understand?' 'Uh, I think,' I stutter.

'I don't want to be official, until being official doesn't change anything between us. Putting a title on us shouldn't make you or I any more committed. It's just the way I work, I guess. Trust is massive in a relationship and I want us to be able to communicate and figure out the way each other works in certain situations before making it official,' she stops and takes a deep breath in, 'sorry, is there anything you want to say?' she finishes.

'I understand everything you're saying and I, yeah, yeah, I like that, I think that we should make sure we understand each other fully before making any big decisions. You know I was in a long term relationship for basically all of my teenage years and I guess we never fully learnt how to deal with each other, despite being with each other for so long, so, I think it's best that we just take the time to fully learn about each other. I'm difficult sometimes if I'm being honest like I'm stubborn and I don't want to push you away, I-' I stutter.

'Harry,' she looks down and grabs my hand, placing it on her lap, while fiddling with my fingers, 'nothing you could do, will every push me away. You're right, you're extremely hard to understand, usually, I can figure out what's going through people's head, but with you it's different. I, I, fuck, I can't get my words out,' she stutters, fixing me with her eyes. 'Basically, what I'm trying to say is, I want to understand you, I don't care if you're stubborn because I'll learn how to talk to you when you are. I, I want, I want you, okay? You're stuck now,' she laughs.

'I want you' was all I could keep replaying in my head. She actually fucking wants me, like just me. A huge smile plasters across my face. 'Good, me too, god, you're so good with like talking about how you feel and getting across your, your, what's it called,' I stutter, 'uh, your thoughts, I don't know where I'm going with this.' I let out a small laugh, before continuing, 'I wish I could do that, my brain's a mess half of the time.'

'I know,' she giggles, 'I can help you though, I can try and get your words out for you, you just have to be really open and that's all I ask for. Just try your hardest to be as open as possible, I'm the easiest going person there is, I can't be arsed with that 0 communication, petty going in moods for no reason thing. Let's just chill and see what happens.'

'Yeah, yeah, I want that, I-uh, I really like you, Lil,' I reply.

'I know,' she smiles, 'I like you too, Harold.' She breaks the seriousness of the conversation but erupting into a full fit of laughter. 'Sorry, I can't help it, shit, don't you need to go?' she asks.

'Oh nelly,' I pick up my phone and check the time. It was 12:35 and I had two missed calls from the uber. 'Shit, I do, sorry, I'll text you, bye' I quickly kiss her on the cheek and head towards the bedroom door.

'Bye,' she giggles as I leave the bedroom. I head towards the front door and quickly slip my shoes on before exiting the apartment. I didn't have enough time to get changed before heading to the shoot, so as I entered the uber, I told them to head straight to the studio.

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