Saying Hello As Well As Goodbye

Never Grow Up

"Haz..." Arcy trailed off as she saw me.

I didn't have time to response or more from dads lap before she enveloped me into a hug.

"I wanna go home." I sniffled, hugging her back.

"Okay we'll go home." dad said hugging both of us.

"Arcy will you stay the night?" I asked as we all pulled out of the hug.

"Planned on it!" she smiled holding up her over night bag that I didn't realize she had.

"Where's Aunt Sel and Justin?" I asked her.

"Didn't have the heart to wake mum up and tell her. So I told dad and he told her. They dropped me off at the front and went to park the car." she explained.

Not even two seconds later they came running over to us. Tears streaming down aunt Selena's face.

"C'mere." she said to me.

I finally left the comfort of my dad and hugged her tightly.

"Aunt Sel, I miss her so much." I whispered, feeling new tears developing in my eyes.

"I know baby, I know." she rubbed my back and pulled everyone else in for the hug.

"Becca, which home?" dad asked me as we all pulled away.

"Mine and mums." I said wiping away the fallen tears.

"Okay." he flashed a weak, forced smile.

I really don't want to go back, but I need two more weeks there. Before you ask I'll explain...

A week to grieve in bed and have the funeral and then another to pack everything up and move in with dad. I know it might take longer than a week to get everything packed, and I probably sound heartless or something only giving myself a week to grieve. I just know that mum wouldn't want me giving myself any longer though. I know she would say I need to get up and enjoy life and not mope around because I lost her.

We all said goodbye and dad lead me and Arcy out to his car.

"Radio?" dad asked as we got in and started buckling up.

"Yes please, might help get my mind off things..." I told him.

He smiled at me and turned the radio on.

"Hello everyone who is out and about at this crazy hour of the morning! I'm going to play some old songs for you all! The first being Ronan by the very lovely Taylor Swift!" the radio host announced.

My heart broke even more. It was one of mums songs. I found myself screaming. Which made dad pull the car over, turn the radio off, and turn around to face me.

"Shhhhhh it's off. I turned it off." he said trying to calm me.

"Becca, Harry turned the radio off. It's okay now. Take your hands off your ears." Arcy said, pulling me into her arms.

"okay...can we continue driving now I wanna go to bed." I said moving my hands from my ears.

"Yeah..." dad said, turning around and pulling back onto the road.

We were only a few minutes from the house. He pulled into the driveway and we got out. Walking up to the door I remembered when me and mum first moved here. I was only five or six and mum was going on and on about how living in London will be amazing and how I would just love the house she had bought for us. I smiled at the thought, she was right I love the house and moving from the states was amazing.

"You girls go get in your jams I'll be up in a minute." dad said as he unlocked and opened the front door.

Me and Arc nodded then ran up the stairs and into my room.