i hate to admit it | jeongchan

chapter three

as the time goes by, i felt nothing, the rain suddenly stop pouring against me. i slowly rose up and let the cold air passed through my bare skin that sent shivers down my spine, i tightly hugged myself to atleast have a warmth within. i somehow felt relived but there's something inside me that says otherwise and i dont even know if i passed out a while ago or what.

i looked around the park and it's still raining cats and dogs but why am i not feeling the raindrops no more? im not even under a tree or something that could keep me from it? im so confused? there must be really something in here. i got up from my seat and reached out my hand to feel the constant pouring rain. i smiled, i really love the rain because it reminds me of something i could never forget, a very memorable moment to be exact.

i laughed just by the thought of it, maybe that's just how i see the beauty in sadness? or maybe that's also my way to express my feelings and doubts in life. for me, my perspective in life is really that unique to say at least? i don't even know how to explain it but you'll get my point someday. it is also were i lived in and tune into the senses to more fully experience life.

back to the reality wherein the mystery around remains unsolved and untouched.

i sighed.

nothing will happen if im just going to stay up like this. i need to go back now, im starting to feel dizzy and my visions are becoming blurry as i am still standing. just when i was about to walk away, i suddenly heard a voice behind me, i got tensed up as i breathe in to calm down myself and think of something i can do.

"what the fuck is going on?" i mumbled to myself while fidgeting my fingers.

"it's nice seeing you here all alone but it's also making me sad that you're still in that kind of state." he said.

i slowly turned around to face that person and to my shock that made me even more nervous, that person has really something to do with the state im in right now. because in fact, he's the one who caused this and left me hanging there as i hoped that our relationship will last long.

that person is none other than..

"j-juyeon..?" i said in a very low tone of voice, almost like inaudible but just enough for him to hear it.

"it's been a while, i guess?" he smiled at me.

"w-what are y-you doing here?" i mentally cursed at myself and clenched my fist.

"isn't that suppose to be my question? you, what are you doing here?" he asked looking directly at me.

"especially at night with a heavy weather like this?" he smirked. "it's a very big no for me." he added.

"why do you care so much? it's none of your business." i replied as i rolled down my eyes. this man looking out there is a total creep.

he took out his hand from his pocket to remove the scarf around him and toss it over me. he completely looked like boyfriend material right now, with that white t-shirt and sleeves folded each side as i watched his muscles shifting under the thin fabric of his shirt and the denim pants that suits him very well. i almost forgot the next lines im going to say in this scenery, the author really made me drool over this guy and i hate it here.

i shook my head and averted my gaze to his left hand, it turns out he had his umbrella with him that keeps us from getting wet or so but he mostly put it over me so it was slightly bend.

ah, that's why i can no longer feel it because he's the one who prevented the rain from me, i thought to myself.

i looked back at him and he's now brushing off the dust that got on his shirt, i took this oppurtunity and also as an advantage to get a hold of his hand and put back the umbrella on it's original position so it's equally right over us. he then stop on what was he's doing because of the sudden action. he gently rubbed the back of my hand and i akwardly it pull back and let out a fake laugh.