Snowed in (1D fanfic)

Chapter 3

Louis pov

I stormed out of my seat and made my way into the bathroom, I couldn't deal with the question Zayn had asked partially because I had no idea what the answer to his question was. What had happened to us? I had been asking myself the same thing for the past 2 years. I locked myself in a cubicle and put my head in my hands and started to sob. Why did I still care for Harry even after the way he had treated me? Why was I still becoming upset at a simple question. I stayed there for a while until I heard the door slowly being opened. I don't want to speak to anyone let alone Harry or Zayn. Just as I was wiping the tears off my face I heard the deep voice I was dreading say "Lou are you in there? Come out. Please, we need to talk. I'm sorry." I'm sorry? I'm sorry! Is that all he had to say to me after he left me like that? I wasn't going to forgive him because I knew too well that he would lead me into loving him again, which I wasn't going to let happen. I didn't want to end up heartbroken again. "Lou please come out. I really need to talk to you." "Go away Harry!" I yelled "I don't need an explanation. I read the text message, you just fell out of love. You don't care about me anymore. I get it. Now just leave me alone!" I knew that Harry couldn't have just fallen out of love, we were perfect. I believed. Love like that can't be just fallen out of, but I wasn't in the mood to talk to him. I knew whatever it was would just end in me relapsing back into that dark hole in the back of my head. "PLEASE LOU I HAVE TO EXPLAIN THE SITUATION TO YOU!!!" he was shouting at this point. If the boys hadn't heard us before, they certainly will now. I could tell he really wanted to talk to me. So I decided to hear him out, but if he lied to me I would forget him for good he would get no other chances. "Fine, I'm coming out now but I swear to god if you make up some bullshit excuse I will not give you another chance!" I slowly opened the cubicle door to find an anxious looking Harry leaning against the sinks. He looked up at me and gave me a soft smile. I walked close until we were standing opposite each other, his green eyes looking down on me, making me feel vulnerable again. I took a step back trying not to give him any ideas, although I'm probably just getting ahead of myself why would he love someone like me anyway. I spoke up and said, "So what is it you have to explain to me?" He shook his head as if coming back to reality and stared at me then spoke, "Louis before I tell you I need you to know I did none of it to hurt you the way I did." "Well what is it then Harry?" "I'm so sorry Louis I just can't tell you why. I just wanted to say that I never wanted to hurt you, and I still don't. At the time I just thought it was the best thing to do. But everyday since I've regretted letting you go. I am so sorry Louis I just have to let you know it kills me that I can't tell you the real reason, and just remember I will always love you even if you don't love me." After he spoke I could feel my heart breaking once again. I knew I shouldn't have let him explain himself, I knew it would only hurt a whole lot more the second time. But he had this power over me. He slowly began to make his way toward the door but I stopped him in his tracks by shouting his name. His head spun around so that he was facing me once again. I knew what was going to come next was going to be horrible and I would regret it later but I couldn't control myself. He had forced my heart to break once again and he wasn't going to get away with it this time. My anger was bursting out of my body and I just had to say what I was feeling. "Who do you think you are, Harry ? You can't treat someone like that, all you do is lie to yourself and me about the truth and I never knew why you lied but now I know you're scared. You are just a scared little boy who doesn't know how to feel things, so when the going gets tough you run and hide away because who can't let people see your emotions. You don't care about anyone but yourself, you're selfish. I'm sick of thinking that maybe this time you truly did care. That you really did have an explanation. But after listening to your pathetic excuses I know I was wrong. Did you really think that after you left me with no explanation I would be fine? Do you really think when you love someone the way I loved you it's easy to get over them? Did you ever think of how I felt after seeing every news article and twitter feed about your new relationships and how quickly you moved on? But I'm done Harry. I'm done with your stupid games. And I know that we will be stuck in this pub for the next few hours, but don't expect me to talk to you or even acknowledge your existence. Because I cannot deal with your shit anymore not after what you've just done." with that i stormed out the room leaving a shaken Harry stood there frozen not moving. I knew I'd hurt him but to be honest I couldn't care less. It was his turn to feel hurt like I did. I sat down next to Niall and Liam and there was an awkward silence that needed to be filled, the boys were obviously curious about what just went down between Harry & I. I looked towards Niall and he gave me a shy apologetic smile. He then spoke up and asked "Are you ok Lou we could hear the argument and it sounded pretty harsh? If you need anything just let me know." I smiled back at him and said, "yeah I'm fine Nialler, I'm just really pissed off. He can't treat people like that, you know." He shook his head. He was aware of what Harry could be like towards me. "Yeah I understand Louis. I think I'll go talk to him though, just to check he's ok." He got up and so did Liam. I watched them as they walked off and then entered the bathroom. Then I realised it was only me and Zayn left at the table. Shit. I was not in the mood for another argument. We sat there in silence for a while, until Zayn suddenly spoke up and quietly said "I am sorry Louis. For everything I was just annoyed and I didn't think about what I was saying when I tweeted all those things." I could tell from the sorrow and consideration in his voice his apology had meant something, so I decided that I couldn't stay mad at two people and that i also was sorry for what i'd said on twitter, so I said, "No Zayn you don't need to say sorry i started it. And I know it all spawned from something deeper, but I am not too worried over twitter. I was just so angry about you leaving, after you left we all fell apart. I was at a really difficult time in my life and it just seemed like my best friend had left me. You know I didn't really mean any of it. I've really missed your company the past years, I could have really used your company after me and Harry broke up." he replied with "Yeah i know I've missed you as well. I never meant to leave you, I just needed some time to myself after I had left. To get myself in the right place mentally. I'm sorry about what happened with Harry. I really thought you guys were soul mates. So are we friends again?" I thought for a moment then decided that Zayn and I had a really special friendship, I could never replace our bond. I'd missed it a lot in the last few years so I agreed. The next half an hour or so me and zayn just caught up with eachothers lives. I told him all about Harry and I, and how I was planning on releasing a new album soon. He told me all about Gigi and their baby girl and about his music. It was nice to catch up with Zayn after such a long time, I could tell he enjoyed catching up with me as well.

Zayn pov

I was so glad Louis and I were talking again. I'd been feeling guilty about everything that had happened for a while. I felt as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. He explained to me how Harry had just texted him ending things completely out of the blue. I couldn't believe he had the nerve. Louis loved him so much, and he just left him. I decided to go and speak to him. I know he was already mad at me, but now I was angry too. "I'll be back soon." I said to Louis before excusing myself from the table we had been sitting at. He gave me a small smile. I could tell he was glad that we had resolved everything, and I was too. I had really missed him. A lot.

 I headed towards the bathroom. Niall and Liam had been in there with Harry for a while. I was not expecting to see Harry in tears as soon as I walked in. I stood next to Niall. "What's happened to him?" I whispered. "He's upset because Louis basically ripped into him and told him he never wants to see him again." I raised my eyebrows in shock. I knew Louis hadn't exactly been kind to him from what I'd heard, but I didn't expect him to be crying. I could see Liam trying to talk to him, but he was almost hysterical. I walked over to Harry and put a hand on his back. I was still annoyed about all the shit he had put Louis through, but I couldn't help but feel a little sympathetic. He looked at me, obviously shocked to see me after shouting at me just an hour ago. "Are you alright mate?" I asked. "What's happened?" He began to stop crying and let out a long sigh. "No, I'm clearly not alright. I managed to speak to Louis, but all I did was screw it up even more. I wanted to explain everything, but I just can't. I love him, I really do. But I just can't tell him everything, no matter how desperate I am." he said. "Why can't you tell him?" Niall asked. "Well obviously I can't tell you that either. And now he thinks I'm just lying. Making up some pathetic excuses to make myself look better. But I'm not. I just can't tell him the truth yet." I nodded, knowing now was not the time to push him and quiz him even more. "I've an idea." I whispered into Niall's ear. I quickly rushed through the doors and over to where Louis was sat, fiddling with a coaster. I grabbed his hand and dragged him to the toilet. I knew he would probably hate me again after this, but I couldn't stand to see him and Harry both so distraught. I quickly ushered Liam and Niall out before carrying a chair over and propping it under the door handle. "There," I said with a grin "Now they will have to sort it out." Niall and Liam looked unsure. "Zayn mate, I'm not too sure if that's such a good idea." Niall nodded in agreement. "What's the worst that can go wrong? I don't think that Louis is going to muder him right there in that toilet." I said with a laugh. "No," Niall said "but he will probably murder you when he gets out." Shit. Maybe I hadn't thought this through. I mean of course I had realised that Louis would be mad at me, but what if he didn't want to talk to me again? I had missed him so much over the past years. I couldn't lose him again. Maybe he would understand that I hadn't been thinking rationally? Hopefully. I could see Niall biting his nails and Liam tapping his foot. They must both be worried too. It was too late to go back now, I would just have to leave them and hope for the best.