Climb to The Top

Chapter 2: A Deep Plunge into Despair

It's been a year that I left and I still wonder why no miracles has happened to me, I'm turning 17 next month but I guess this'll be it... I'm getting desperate... I'm cold... I don't have anywhere to go... No one to help me... I can't take it anymore, I want to end my suffering, I don't want to live this life anymore! I'm tired of it! I-I just want to have a p-peaceful life... B-but why... I kept begging and begging but no help comes, no one are willing to take me in... I want to die...  I'm just giving myself a false hope, a false sense of comfort. Why does it have to be hard than it had to be?! Why?! I have so many questions that can't be answered!!! M-my efforts... A-are futile... This is the dead end... I'm cornered by despair, I'm going to lose my sanity...

Yesterday, I tried to jump off a creek, but I realised that my flames aren't yet extinguished, I look into Ardval's eyes and it feels like he's telling me to not do it and I have more ways to go. I imagined that Ardval went through the same pain as I did, neglected, abandoned and left to rot. I promised my best friend that I won't give up no matter how much beaten I am, he's the only light of hope I have. I don't want to lose him.

The company that I was working in closed down because they went bankrupt, I guess it's only a matter of time before Ardval and I starve to death, I must search every store and spend all of my savings working there, and maybe if there's any kind people who would hire me I'll be so grateful, but I don't have any documents to get hired. I'm just a homeless kid that has nowhere to go. Is this even possible? I'm overthinking things again... I think my mental state is becoming more unstable as days go by. I might not survive this. No, I don't want to give up yet, I still have many stairs to climb I have to get through this, I'll give everything I have to have a bright future! It's too early to give up now! It's too early to lose hope! Everything's not over yet! Fight! Fight! Fight! I'll overcome any challenges has life given me! So bring it on!! Bring it on!!!!

I never really thought that I would break down in amidst of all of this, but one thing is for certain that everybody has their own challenges, their own will to fight and how they fight. Those people really inspires me to live this life for the better, even though they don't know me at least I still have my inspiration. I promise to myself that I would pick myself back up again and never let this fire in my heart go out.

I saw a flyer that hires homeless people, but they interview them for their experiences and put them in a job that is suit for them. I don't have any particular skill and my experience is just being a janitor HAHAHA, but nothing's impossible, I'll just try this one and give it a shot to see where will it take me.

Good news! I got hired! But as a street cleaner, I mean it's not a whole lot but at least I can buy things that I need for now, I gotta save up money to buy stuff I want and also things for Ardval such as toys. He's been playing with a chicken bone as a chew toy but don't worry Ardval, I'll buy you something even better than a chicken bone and besides, it's too risky that he might swallow it all which is a big no no, Ardval is a pretty reckless dog and that's a best way to describe him. Him and I have a system, he provides me some support while I provide him food WAHAHAHA, funny right? But it works! And certainly is!

I received a message from someone about my mother and they said that...