ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴀ ꜱᴀᴅ ꜱᴏɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀʏ

ɓuıpıH ɯ,I ʇǝɹɔǝS ǝɥ⊥

I'm not scared of the dark
I'm not runnin', runnin', runnin'
No I'm not afraid of the fall
I'm not scared, not at all
Why would a star, a star ever be afraid of the dark?
➪☔︎︎
♫ꨄLil Wayne & Ty Dolla $ign ~ Scared of the Dark (feat. XXXTENTACION)

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Recap:

"I don't want to know what the hell is possibly hurting her right now. I just wanted the name, maybe I'll look it up later or something when...when...you know," I said quietly. The only response that came was from the radio as the long car ride continued. When we arrived, I went inside, until a hand stopped me.

    "I can call in sick for tomorrow if that's what you want," Dad suggested, but I shook my head.

    "No, it's okay. I'll go to school tomorrow, besides it'll be good for me." I said, before running up the stairs. Once in the safety of my room, I collapsed to the floor, sitting on my knees and placed my hands over my face, trying to steady breathing and almost gasping for air shakily.

I wanted to be strong, manly, but at that moment, weakness took over there was no stopping it. Fucking shit. The feeling was overwhelming. I had to stay strong for my family and my friends right now. People at school depend on me to cheer them up and I can't be all sad now!

With one final exhale, I stood up and head to my bathroom. I shut the door behind me before sliding down against it with my knee tucked to my chest. I didn't really have a belief in these type of things because I'm a raging homosexual, but I folded my trembling hands together and bowed my head, a quiet prayer escaped my lips.

Recap Over

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    The first thing I noticed when I woke up was the dreadful silence that filled this house. I jumped when my phone alarm went off and quickly turned it off. I swear to you it was the loudest shit ever and I can't stand waking up to that. I still felt tired and I wanted to go back to sleep, but I know it would be impossible to sleep even if I just rolled around the whole night with barely a wink of rest.

My mind was filled with many different things. I just wanted to hide under my covers for the whole day and forget the events of yesterday but I urged myself out of the warmth of my bed.

I changed into a t-shirt with some basketball shorts and some Jordan's before heading downstairs to see the kitchen empty. I froze and looked for a moment to gather myself the continued to make myself some breakfast.

    I had to keep repeatedly remind myself that mama was okay and safe in the hospital. She is tough and will be alright, back to being a lawyer then everything will be back to normal. It just has to be.

    Not paying attention, my elbow hit the box of cereal, making a mess of the floor. For a moment, I just stared at it then sighed. I turned in my seat to stand up which cause my other elbow to hit my bowl and spill it all over the table.

I cursed under my breath and slammed my fist on the table, recoiling from the stinging pain that shot up my arm. Taking a couple of breaths to calm down, I stood up and went to grab a wash rag to clean the milk.