Keep on Keepin on <3

Ch. 3) why?

2 months later-

"Lucy your crying like it all happened again" said Jen.

"I can't help , just realizing that tomorrow at this time I won't be able to walk" I said

"Keep on keepin on" mom told me

I didn't have enough strength to say it back. I , I don't wanna give up but I also don't have any more strength to fight back.

"damn mom, why me, why now, why can't I live my life and then quit!" I told her in my depressed , mad , frustrated voice that she knows she will have no clue what to say.

" I can't tell you the answers honey , I have no clue anymore, I have no answers!" Mom said in a voice to try and make me understand.

I've thought about killing myself before but never to this extreme, but what good would that do not only for me but for my mom to. I couldn't let her be alone. I wouldn't let her live through hellfire.

~The next day~

So it's gone , got tons of pain but no worse then the crash.

No-one has any words. Nothing! But really I'm not in the mood to talk either.We are going to try prosthetics but with my luck I will never be able to walk again. Why? Will I? When? The questions I ask myself everyday.