My Christmas Boyfriend

I told him

It had been 3 days since seeing Danny that night. We had broken up from school and Nathan had been texting and calling me non-stop. Just as my phone buzzed for what it must of bin for the 100th time, i heard a loud knock at my door. I stayed in my bedroom knowing my mom would answer it. I put my earphones in and snuggled down in my bed when i felt a hand touch my shoulder. I jumped up and looked up.

"No.NO!" I shrieked shaking my head.

"Please stop! No more nightmares! Please stop torturing me!" I screamed, tears rolling down my face.

Nathan sat next to me wiping my tears.

"Shh..Shh..It's okay, it's just me. I'm not going to do anything."  He whispered pulling me into a soft hug.

I nuzzled my nose into his neck and breathed in his nice familiar smell.

After 5 minutes of the sensational and calming hug i calmed down and looked up at him. I looked a state. My hair was everywhere and probably greasy. I was wearing my childish spongebob pj's and to top it off i had just spilled my tears over him, and my eyes were all red and puffy. Nice look i had going. We was now lying down on my bed and i was still snuggled up to him.

"So, what was that all about?" Nathan asked looking down at me, concerned.

I took a while to answer just staring into space. Should i tell him?

"There are so many unanswered questions and i would, so love to know what goes on in that mind of yours."  Nathan said staring at the top of my head as if he could read my mind there and then.

I leaned up resting against the pillows behind me and i wiped my eyes.

"Iv'e been getting...nightmares lately..about you." I began, fiddling with my sleeve.

"What kind of nightmares?" He asked now sitting up next to me and looking at me.

"Well, the first one i had last week and you tried killing me with a knife. You chased me into the woods and i started falling into the ground. I thought i was going to be swallowed up by the earth but then you came running up to me and was about to kill me but i woke up. And i had another one the other day..." I whispered looking up to him.

"What happened in the other one..." He gestured for me to go on.

I swallowed nervously.

"You tried to...rape me.." I answered biting my lip.

Nathan looked at me wide-eyed in shock taking agies to answer.

"Umm..How long have you been having these dreams...?" He asked concerned.

"Pretty much every night" I replied matter-of-factly.

"That's not right. What could of triggered this to happen?" He asked.

I bit my lip.

"Does this have anything to do with that boy the other night by any chance?" He asked raising his eyebrow.

I bit my lip again.

"Look, Maddy if you want to speak to me about anything i'll be here ok?" He asked looking directly in my eyes.

His eyes took me to a whole different planet. They swept me in to a paradise of streams. They were so beautiful...

"He hit me." I came out with, without thinking. Damn it! How am i trusting him with this?

Nathan stared at me. I could see anger in his eyes and he knew that, that wasn't all. His eyes told me to go on.

"And..And.." I bit my lip and squeezed my eys shut.

"He.. Raped me." I whispered so quietly hoping he didnt hear.

He didnt answer. Yes! Maybe he didn't hear me. Thank G-.

"WHAT?!" He shouted through clenched teeth, tightening his fists together.

I opened my eyes and they swelled with tears. He stood up really fast standing in front of me. I thought he was going to walk out on me. GOD! Why did i tell him!? Why couldnt i have kept my mouth shut. How do i know he's not going to tell everyone now. He's not gunna want anything to do with me, and im going to be the talk of the school, so then i'll have to move school to umm..Paris. Yes! Paris! I like Paris. And then-

"Come on, get up, get washed, get dressed, we're going out" He demanded which shook me out of my future life plans.

I stared at him for a few minutes, taking in what he'd just said before sitting up.

"Well, dont just sit there and stare. It's 1 o clock already!" He exclaimed pulling me on to my feet.

He had really changed. He had gone from annoying, bad-boy, demanding, childish Nathan to sweet, concerned, mature Nathan. Well, saying that he was demanding both way's but yeah..

I dashed to my bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. Fuck! I really did look awful. How embarrasing! I jumped in the shower and surrounded myself with sweet, flowery scents thinking of everything that had just happened. Oh my god. I had just told Nathan what Danny did to me. How do i know this wont backfire on me? I wonder where Nathan's taking me? I havent been out properly in a while, only to go to the shop because mom would make me go out telling me "I need some fresh air" and that "it would make me feel better". She made some lame excuse up saying she needed chocolate. Lots and lots of chocolate. She wouldn't tell me why...Any who, I must get out the shower to find out where i am actually going. I leaped out and wrapped my warm, leopard-print towel round me. I opened my bathroom door and walked along the landing to my bedroom. When i got in my room there was an outfit layed out on my bed. Huh? Mom stopped doing that a long time ago. I walked over to my bed and looked at the outfit. It was quite a nice match of clothing actually. A white-laced top with some black leggins and my deep, blue, sequined scarf and blue converse. I looked around my room to see if Nathan was in my room. I couldn't see him but wasn't quite convinced.

"Nathan!" I shouted walking to the top of my stairs.

I heard laughing.

"He's down here with me!" Mom shouted up to me.

Well, she seems in a happy mood. Wonder what their speaking about? Mom better not be telling him anything embarrassing about me. I know what she's like...And Nathan better not be flirting with her. Shes 33, i dont think she'd go for someone like Nathan...And i know, she's young. She had me at a young age because..Well, thats a long story and i need to focus on getting myself ready.

I closed my door and whacked off my towel rubbing at my hair and putting it as a turban on top of my head. I started getting dressed and walked over to my dressing table applying some makeup and began to dry my hair. I turned my hair dryer of to comb my hair when i heard a knock at my door and it started to open. I looked round to see Nathan standing in my doorway grinning at me. He spotted my straighteners on and immediately came towards them and switched them off. I looked at him confused and annoyed.

"Dont straighten your hair, it looks much prettier with your natural curls" He smiled.

Arww! That was so cute! I started smiling going my usual cherry red.

"I mean, I want you to look awful with that big frizz of yours!" He grinned evilly starting to laugh.

Omg! He's an idiot. I slapped him folding my arms over my chest and pouting.

"I'll just turn them back on then!" I huffed reaching over to them.

He snatched them away and pulled me up on to my feet dragging me out the room and down my stairs. Who does he think he is? I'm the one that does the dragging, not him.

"Lets go!" He demanded taking me out the front door.

"Bye Ms Mullan!" He shouted to my mom closing the front door.

God! Since when did he get close to my mom.

He led me to the car and we started driving down the road.

"So..Where we going?" I asked.

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