Suicide Season

Chapter Three

"Nik, weren't you supposed to be going to that meeting thing?" Xander asked.

"Oh, yeah I was. I'll see you two in twenty minutes okay?" I stood up and made my way inside school, I reached the cafeteria when I saw Libby and Ashley staring at me from a table, there is so many people around.

Libby, even though she was beautiful her inside was sour as fuck. She didn't give a shit about anyone. And she loved to make peoples lifes a living hell. Ashley, is like her personality twin. But of course, for Libby to even look at her, she would have to be pretty, which she was. 

Libby and Ashley walked up to me, "Hey emo," Libby laughed.

"Hey bitch" I replied.

"What did you just call me?" Libby's fake eyebrow went right up her face.

"Bitch" I smiled sarcsticly and carried on walking, not realising her foot was going to trip me over, I did trip over it. Slamming my face against the cafeterias floor. I tried standing up. How unlucky is it that the floor was slippy as fuck because it just got cleaned? Very. I thought so. Well, Ashley at that point ran back to the table they came from, came back with a bottle of water, gave it to Libby and Libby spilled it all over me. That was so fucking fustrating. But, not only that, they both decided to kick me, at that point I was crying from the pain. It hurts so much. "Stop it.." I whisper. They carried on, I sat up, and stayed emotionless.  They kicked and punched me. After around two minutes they stopped and walked back to the table, laughing. I stood up, there was blood coming from my nose and lips, my stomache hurt like hell from the kicking. I walked outside school, looked over at Ollie and Xander. I sighed and looked around to see Shade running up to me.

"For gods sake." I mutter to myself and start walking. 

"Nikki, where are you going?" Shade said, grabbing my wrist.

"Mind your own buisness, Dark." 

"I saw what they did to you." 

"Good for you." I snatched my wrist out of his hand and carried on walking.

He followed me, "So, where are you going?"

"Somewhere."

"Where?"

"If you're going to follow me then there's no point in me telling you"

"Right." 

*At a lake*

I sat down by a large crystal lake, surrounded by a wall of orange and gold trees. Shade sat next to me and looked around.

"It's beautiful here," He said.

"Mhm" I hummed and stared at my reflection in the water. "You don't remember do you?" I whispered really quietly.

He then looked at my relection in the lake and smiled to himself. I turned slightly red and looked away. "So, why did you follow me here?"

He was silent for a few seconds, "Because I wanted to," as he said that he got a notebook from his bag and started writing something.

I sighed and looked at him, "What are you writing?"

"A poem"

"About?"

"Someone"

"Who?"

"You'll see"

We talked for a while, it was getting dark, I stared down at the water that's when Shade slipped a piece of paper infront of me and stood up. I looked at him.

"Where are you going?" I asked

"It's late so I'm taking you home."

"I-it's alright, I can go by myself..."

"I'm not letting you," 

I sighed, picked the piece of paper up and stood up. Shade held my hand, my whole body was filled with warmth. I smiled slightly then lost the smile and pulled away from him. 

"I'd rather go home alone." I said.

"I already told you; I'm not letting you,"

"Fuck off please, I never asked you to follow me here nor to take me home," I snapped and started walking.

He sighed in the distance, "Sorry," He whispered and sat down facing the water.

I just carried on walking, the piece of paper was held against my chest as I walked home, rain fell from the sky, and the onlly light sorce I had were the street lights, I walked towards a road, there were no cars coming, I stepped out onto the road as a car drove past me, almost hitting me. Honestly, I wish it did. Anyway, I carried on walking, I didn't want to go home, I turned to a different direction. It was a train station. "Perfect," I whispered and started walking towards it. When I got to it I saw multiple people standing right next to the tracks. They all wanted to commit suicide, all of them. I stood by one of the people, I looked at the piece of paper Shade gave me;

A little brunette
who smiled a lot
once wrote a poem,
on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
and called it "Mummy and Daddy"
because that's what it was all about
and her teacher gave her an A
and her parents put it up on the kitchen door
and read it to their family.
and her parents kissed a lot.
and the boy around the corner gave her
a valentines card with a row of X's
and her mother tucked her to bed
and read her a book.

A little brunette
who smiled less
one wrote a poem
on a white piece of paper with blue lines
and called it "Stop Smoking"
because that was what she wanted
and her teacher gave her an A
and her mother put it up on the kitchen door,
but didn't read it to her family,
and her parents didn't kiss a lot
and the boy around the corner gave her
a little poem, about how wonderful she is
and her mother tucked her to bed
but never read her a book anymore.

A little brunette
who didn't smile at all
once wrote a poem
on a piece of paper from her notebook
and she called it "Dispair"
because that's what is it was all about
and her professer gave her an A and a
dirty look
and her mother didn't put it on the kitchen door
because she never showed her
and her parents didn't sleep in the same room
and the boy around the corner gave her another little poem
about how beautiful her smile was
and her mother never tucked her to bed anymore
so she lied in her bed and stared at the ceiling.

A little brunette
who always wore long sleeves
once wrote a poem 
on a piece of toilet paper
and she called it "I'm Sorry"
because that's what it was all about
and she gave herself an A
and hung it on the bathroom door
because she didn't think
she'd reach the kitchen
once again.

A tear fell from my eye, I stepped onto the tracks with all the other people, we all looked at each other and smiled. Then I saw Shade, Keanu, Nat, Scar and nearly everyone else I know. I shouted their names, over and over. Telling then to get off the tracks, but they ignored me. Tears fell from my eyes like a river. I kept on shouting and screaming telling them to get off the tracks once again. Then a train came...

a/n

So... this was an interesting chapter...
Yeah.
And the poem isn't fully mine.
I edited someone elses from tumblr xD
if you want to read the original one then ourescapedsilence wrote it on tumblr
it's called Absolutely Nothing

so yeah

Hope you enjoyed (:

Bye
Staystrong<3

-Nikki