I could only listen to my steady breathing as I watched the guys clim into the van with Paul
I looked at louis directly who Just climbed in and the memories from the interview rushed back into my mind causing my heart to flutter with hurt.
"Harry?" I heard Nick after he knocked
"Come in" I whispered nervous.
I heard the door click open and shut and I didn't other turning around when I heard Nick walking towards me.
I heard a screeching sound of a chair,specifically 2 chairs being dragged on the floor.
I turned around seeing Nick put 2 chairs near us and sat on one when Nick gestured for me to sit on it.
I took a seat clasping my hands.
"Haz,you look nervous mate" Nick stated causing me to look up.
"Is anyone here?" I asked Not acknowledging his statement properly.
"Well,it has been almost 4 hours since the interview finished and every staff has gone home and fans are starting leaving to go home since they saw you leave and think that you left too,but other then that the only people here is us and the room here you chose is sound proof and that is probably why no one heard you crying" Nick replied crossing his arms and raising one of his eyebrows probably talking about my blood shot eyes.
That's probably why I told the boys and Paul to go without me and I needed to talk to Nick.
"I'll explain..."i breathed "j-just...dont hate me!"i whispered my voice shaking
He nodded curious but ensuring me.
"I-I don't...k-know...i-I,j-just...l-louis"i stuttered suddenly my breathing pacing up.
No, no, no, no.
I don't want those panic attacks to come back.
"Harry calm down,he's not here,what has worked you up so much?" Nick exclaimed hugging me.
I had told Nick everything I hadn't told anyone except Nick not the boys not even my mum and sister.
But I had revealed it when I was slightly tipsy but honestly am relieved.
"Nick....i-I am having t-these thought about s-someone"i stuttered nervous and trying to calm down and swallow the painful lump in my throat opposing to me talking.
"Who?"he asked pulling back so he could see my face.
I felt tears welling up and I Looked down ashamed
"I-it's a.....its...a g-guy"i stumbled already feeling my eyes filling with too much tears before it let go and the tears streamed down my face.
"Harry,its alright,okay" he smiled at me hugging me tightly and I Just melted into the hug and tried to get as much as comfort as I can.
"So who's this lucky guy" Nick joked sending me a wink again.
"Do you love me or something Nick you have winked at me at least 5 times today counting the interview and now"i answered now slightly smiling.
"How did you know" Nick smiled sarcastically smirking "now don't beat around the question and tell me"he added
"Louis" I stated bluntly, less nervous
"Your bandmate"he asked his eyes wide and mouth slightly open causing my fear of being hated by Nick to come back.
I nodded shamefully.
Nick chuckled,
"Am not judging you Harold,i don't care if you said you decided to marry a kitten"nick laughed
"Oh trust me you'll be first to lnow" I added causing him to laugh
"Okay,whatever......but just why louis?"he asked worried
"Why not?"i asked furrowing my eyebrows in confusion
"Well his not the best... guy...."nick suddenly stopped.
I crossed my arms suddenly defensive.
"Continue" I said sternly.
"Louis....just promise to not break down because I know you probably like him so much if you actually decided to being back to who you are,the harry who is gay and proud."nick smiled sadly
I nodded really curious.
"Louis.......louis is homophobic" nick stated.
"W-what"i spluttered
"H-his as homophobic...well,nearly as much as your dad" Nick muttered before pulling me into a hug.
I was still in a trance
Louis hated gay or bi people.
Louis was a homophobe.
Louis hates me.
The boy I fell in love hates me with everything.
I pushed nick away running out of the room my breathing to slow for my liking and tears blurred my vision as I kept running sobbing non-stop
Why?
Why did I have to love him?
Before I knew it I collapsed.
I did what Nick has told me it too.
I broke down.
A/n
THREE CHAPTERS AT A TIME U BETTER VOTE AND SHIT IS GOING DOWN BTW ON THE 3 chapter
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LOVE IS A BULLY (larry Stylinson)
Teen Fiction(READ THIS OR YOU WILL NEVER MEET 1D!) Larry; The most popular gay ship in one direction. Louis thought it was stupid (secretly disgusted) and Just laughed it off So did harry. Well,that was until he started feeling something new for his best mate...
