emerald eyes - DNF/gream

i think youre gonna change my plans

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yea that's funny

...so what should we do?

i don't know I guess we could finish fixing up the community house

yea okay

god this is so awkward, the silence is so loud and the worst part is the stream doesn't know what happened

um i think im gonna end stream now guys, one second george

okay guys thank you for coming to the stream!! ill probably stream again soon but maybe speedruns instead of the smp, thank you for all the subs and donos im sorry that i didnt get to all of them but im very grateful for them all. i love you guys, see you soon! byeeee

what do i do now?? i cant just go talk to george ugh

despite not wanting to dream clicks his hotkey to unmute on discord

hey george..

soo are we going to discuss it or not?

..lets talk later im gonna go to sleep, good night

okay bye

i think youre gonna change my plans..with those emerald eyes

i cant stop thinking about it, how just before i started streaming i told him that i'm in love with him and now he wont talk to me.

well i guess i didnt  tell  him i just hinted at it

we were in a vc and i said "i really do love you george, you mean a lot to me" he just said "thanks" and it went silent, then i really fucked up. i said "i mean i love you like, a  lot.." there was another pause and he just laughed, he laughed. how could he do that to me?? i guess he didnt think i was being serious but i  REALLY  fucked it when i started stream and then dmed him "im not joking george."

im going to sleep, this is too much right now. holy shit its 4 am.

but you dont even understand..how much they're on my mind

dream turns off his pc leaving his room dark and silently climbs into bed with patches, the gentle moonlight just barely shining through his curtains slightly lighting up his room. he stares at his ceiling until eventually his eyes close and dont open for another few hours.

its 5 am and dream cant sleep anymore, patches has migrated to right on top of his chest and he's slightly struggling to breathe. dream wipes his eyes, sighs and slowly gets up to turn on his pc, the first thing he realizes it that george has dmed him multiple times.

from: gogy<3

im sorry dream i just dont feel the same way and i dont think i ever will                                                      i feel bad but i dont want to lead u on                                                                                                                      im just trying to be honest without hurting u too much

hes joking right?? no way did he just reject me like that.

dream sits up in his chair and freezes not knowing what to do or how to respond, a few minutes go past while he processes what george has just dmed him. 

what the fuck

he thinks of things he could say but just decides to get up and go to the bathroom across from his gaming room. the door creaks as he swings it open to shuffle through his old reddish cabinets for his blades. he quickly opens the package and adds a few more small scars to the collection on his left wrist. 

feels like im breathing in and out without permission

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