Forever?

Sykkuno

"How did you know?" My voice was dull. Even I could feel that.

"I..." Alec paused for a moment as if he was debating whether he should tell me the truth or not. "Last night, when you came out of the bathroom you said that this might be the only time you get to see me. I didn't say anything at first because it seemed like you wanted to keep it a secret from me." He looked fragile at this moment.

"Yeah..." I finally turned around, wearing a smile. "Well, you don't have to worry about me exposing you. It's not like I took photos of you." That's a lie. I took more than enough photos to last me through the year.

"I know you won't and that's not what I'm worried about. I'm just wondering where you'll be moving to." Alec reached to his back pocket, pulling out a pack of cigarettes. I've never seen those before.

"Well..." I played with my hands, watching Alec pop one in his mouth and light it. I tried to stall, but I knew I wouldn't last. "New York..." My voice was light and slow, wishing he didn't hear me.The atmosphere has changed. Alec's eyes looked null and void. It's like the wall I knocked down was back up and running. Maybe I should stop talking to myself.

In a moment of silence, his voice made a shiver run down my spine and ant, not the good kind. "I see," was all he said.

"Well, it doesn't matter. We can always talk on the phone you know." I touched his shoulder, which seemed foreign to me now. Maybe I've overreacted.

"You know you could've just told me, right?" He looked at me.

"I thought you wouldn't trust me anymore. I figured you would've kept your distance from me. I was overthinking. Sorry." I finally finished my blabbering but went on to say, "I can go now. I can pack up and leave."

"Kuno, you don't have to leave. You're fine just tell me these things okay? So when are you leaving?" He ruffled my hair while sitting in the chair behind me.

I touched my head, trying to mimic the warm touch. "I-I'll be leaving next week on Saturday."

"This time next week huh. Feels weird." He turned around in surprise as I leaned against the wall.

"Yeah...Are you mad?" I asked

"A little. It means we won't get to spend weekends together." Alec smiled, but it seemed fake.I laughed, "I guess so."

"What are we doing today besides ordering pizza?" I laughed at his question.

"I don't know, I'm in your neighborhood. You gotta show me around. The grin growing on my face was impossible to stop. I almost forgot about Alec's fake smile. Keyword: Almost.

"That I cannot do. I don't go out much. When I do it's only for groceries. Besides no one in this town knows that I'm Corpse. I don't know how. Anyway, almost everyone knows you. Since they know that you're with me..." He trailed off and I nodded. "see where I'm going with this?"

"Yeah..." I sighed."Sorry for causing you trouble. I really didn't mean for all of this to happen. I just said a few words. You should've told me that you weren't on mute."

"How do I bring that up in conversation. You were talking and I didn't want to interrupt you and it felt rude if I did so."

I sighed. "Alec, being on mute is more important than not saying anything."

"I guess you're right. Anyway, staying in the house is so boring. I mean, I don't mind being with you. You're never boring." Alec scratched the back of his head.

"You say I'm cute but you get embarrassed way too easily." I teased.

"I-I do not!" He pushed my shoulder. "You're so weird."

"I have something to tell you. How you'll take it is up to you." I sighed.

"If it's about you leaving I don't want to hear about it. It makes me sick just thinking about it." He continued smoking.

"Right well, it isn't about that. It's about me, personally. You've told me so many things already, I feel like it's only the right thing to do." I fiddled with my hands, glancing around me.

"You know, just because I told you about myself doesn't mean you have to open up to me. If there are things that you don't want to talk about then that's fine." He chuckled.

"Alec, seriously."

"We're getting serious now. I should stop smoking." He joked and put the cigarette in the ashtray.

"I didn't want to freak you out at first but I'm..."

"Wait, wait, wait, wait, before you say anything. Do you think that I'll get mad?" Alec shook his hand.

"I mean maybe. I don't know. I have no idea what goes on inside your head."

"I mean..."

"Enough stalling...I'm gay Alec!" I yelled.

"That was..." Alec coughed, "...very unexpected." Alec looked at me. "You felt the need to tell me this because?"

I sighed, this would have to get out some time. Todays the day. He's been nice to you for so long. It's time. No more hiding. "I don't know if you feel the same or if you even think of me that way. I like you. Ever since we met through that stupid discord call. You've been nothing but nice to me. Maybe I'm reading into and maybe you were just joking, but you always do things with me that makes me so happy. I don't take things like that as a joke you know. I just needed to tell you that."