Take me back

Part 30

Chapter 30
Trigger warning:
-Self harm
"Guys why are you crying" and then I patted on my stomach just to say hello to my baby...but my stomach felt flat...really flat...with a teeny bump but the bump didn't feel like the one I had while pregnant it was way smaller...I look down at my stomach and my bump is gone "where the fuck is my baby bump...WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED" they stare at me trying to put out the right words but they couldn't let it out "FUCKING TELL ME WHERE IS MY BABY" I started crying hard as shit.

Molly tried giving me a hug but I was full of different emotions "DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME WHERE IS MY BABY" and Hermione took a deep breath and let it out..."Kehlani...sh-sh-she's gone..." my eyes widened as I was full of shockness..."get out please... please get out all of you" and Narcissa tried holding my hand but I through my pillow towards them "I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT" while crying they listened and left, i started punching the wall, kicking it doing everything I could to hurt myself.

Why is everything bad always happening to me... what did I do to deserve this "IM FUCKING TIRED OF LIFE...WHY ME W-w-why me..." I took a deep breath and fell to the ground...I continued crying and yelling I even started punching the ground "I fucking hate life why is it always me" while my knuckles were bleeding, Knees were all bruised up, my eyes were puffy, Draco came running in and surrounded me with a hug "Kehlani stop this now" I didn't say nothing and cried harder each minute.

Draco took me to his room "your sleeping in my bed tonight I don't want no one seeing you like this and plus the boys are out for tonight they went to spend the night at their lame grand mothers house" I heard him shut the door and leave I whispered to myself while crying still "how did you die...why did you die...why did you leave me" I started crying again and I started thinking...maybe I should join them, maybe this is a sign to go with them...no no I can't I have to be strong...but I can't not when I just lost my fucking everything.

I struggled sleeping and then I heard a huge band hit the wall and I checked and it was windy as fuck and the hard wind opened up the window and made it slam to the wall...for some reason I got scared...I didn't feel safe for some reason...I headed to the bathroom and started throwing up "fuck why am I feeling like this" I felt something appear around my neck "what is this" as I felt it, it was a necklace and you could open it, I opened it and it was a picture of me and Fred.

I started crying and I held the necklace "I miss you baby...I miss you so so much...I might be coming to you soon ok" as I looked at myself in the mirror I looked so pale, my nose all red because of the crying, I looked at the cabinet and see a sharp razor blade... I didn't want to touch it but for some reason I did...I took a deep breath "please stop this pain please" I pressed it against my skin and started cutting "AH FUCK" Draco came barging in the bathroom.

"There you are what the fuck are you doing" I quickly put the blade inside my jacket and put my sleeve down "I'm doing nothing I'm just washing my face" he gave me a look as he knew something was up but he said "alright I'll wait for you outside the door come out when your ready...don't do nothing stupid" he closed the door and I took a deep breath... I'm sick and tired of everything sooner or later I'm going to have to give up and leave this awful world... I'm too tired to continue life with all these struggles.

It was the next morning and my arm felt numb Draco walked in the room and tried waking me up by moving my arm "FUCK" I yelled because he was putting pressure on the cuts...I scared him I assumed because he jumped back "what did I do" he questioned and I nodded and said I mistakes my words...I know it's a stupid excuse but it's the first thing that came to my head.Draco ended up bring me my breakfast to bed which is a good thing because I didn't have the strength to get up, as I was about to eat my owl brought a letter to me.

I was scared to open it but I quickly did it just to get over it
Dear Kehlani,
You may know me as Tom riddle and to be nice I had one last job to finish which was to kill you, but as the kind person I am I chose not to kill you, but if you step out the door you'll find a surprise...Enjoy.
Tom riddle was no good at all...all the stories about him oh my, I slowly walked to the door and then opened it "NO HARRY".