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My Father's Posture

I've been meaning to switch all the times back on the clocks
I haven't dreamed of you in so long but I did last night and a lot
The past is haunted, figments of memory are plastered in my mind, I wish I forgot

All the stupid love hoax shit I bought
After failed marriage, hoping, I thought
If I told you I loved you from day one, I would never have to be in my mother's spot
And you in my father's posture, position, changing decisions, bleeding love and standing trial, leaving, set me off screaming, just to come back and watch

I think I just figured out why this would never work between us both
All I want in a partner is what I never got from my parental figures and you reject growth
I want someone to pay the bills, take me out, take me home, and tuck me in goodnight
And you want anybody else, if you didn't why would you tell it to my face and walk away when you make me cry

I've been meaning to switch all the times back on the clocks
I haven't dreamed of you in so long but I did last night and a lot
The past is haunted, figments of memory are plastered in my mind, I wish I forgot

All the stupid love hoax shit I bought
After failed marriage, hoping, I thought
If I told you I loved you from day one, I would never have to be in my mother's spot
And you in my father's posture, position, changing decisions, bleeding love and standing trial, leaving, set me off screaming, just to come back and

I know that we're bad for each other
I don't know why I didn't let you go
No, I do, I wanted you to want me
Because I got comfortable in making you my new home
And I don't wanna pack my things or leave the driveway
I just wish that you understood what I needed, and respected my desires
Though you're like a child, now I know everything I needed to
I'll be on my way, away from you

I thought
If I told you I loved you from day one, I would never have to be in my mother's spot
And you in my father's posture, standing trial, leaving, screaming

Just to come back
Just to come back
Just to come
Just to come back
Come back and watch