Strung

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Warning: This might be triggering. This all takes place in the middle of March. Which is Timothy's birthday. Around the mid-twenties? 23-26?

[Mid-March: 3/24 -- 3/28]
Bullworth Cemetery
8:00 am

Bullworth was the only place with a cemetery near the other town I was in. I have some off's and on's about my dad being buried here. First, one. After that incident when I caught Edna digging around in graves and harvesting meat from dead people to feed to us. I don't want to know that my next meal for a whole two months is my father. Count that as one off. One on that I have is being near my school and friends. So that if mom decides to torment me and chase me I can sprint to a semi-safe place. The rest can be figured out. I'm too busy mourning.

"How are you feeling, Timothy?" Mordecai looked up from his phone and gave me a weak smile. I woke up crying this morning. I hate how my birthday has to be on the day of our dad's funeral. How am I supposed to feel? Happy because I'm getting older or sad because someone's dead. I certainly hate wishing death on people but I wished mom died instead. She never wanted me at Bullworth in the first place, she wasn't even supposed to come here anyway. Now, I'll be stuck with her. I need to quit being down, dad wouldn't want that.

I inhale sharply and force myself to smile, but it drops hard and shatters into an ugly frown, followed by a waterfall of tears. "Can I just go? I know that she'll be here and I don't want to see her." Mom is coming. She has been staying in a motel room in New Coventry. It won't take long for her arrival. Dad's family also had to fly here. Mainly consisting of my aunts and uncles. He didn't have much after he married my mother. But when they found out he was having a girl, only a few of them stayed.

"Timothy is in Bullworth! He says he has some new friends with him too!" Pinky lays back on the couch. Zoe vaults over and lands next to her. "Beatrice aren't you glad?" Pinky asks. Yesterday, why Mandy told me was triggering. I didn't speak after the fight. I broke my temper and busted Mandy's jaw. Petra would be so proud but shocked at the same time. Though it's whatever. Mandy had it coming. I won that stupid fight by the way. "I am. But can we go there to support Petra?" We've gotten used to Timothy/Petra's ways. We move back and forth between Timothy and Petra. But it's come to mind that they could be gender fluid.

[Hi there! This is where it starts! If you don't want to read it. Just look out for my little messages in bold!]
Sex and Gender are different things. Gender is what we call ourselves. I'm a cis female. Meaning my biological parts match with my identity how I physically, vocally, and mentally pass myself. Sex is what we have between our legs, on our chests what is in our system. For intersex, that person may have scrambled parts. An intersex person could be seen as a male and have a micropenis. Micropenis is a sign that you're meant to be female.
[Lol! Micropenis.]
An enlarged clitoris means you were meant to be male. Once people figure out they could have gender dysphoria and would transition. Gender dysphoria doesn't always mean your trans. You don't need to or have to hate your body to be transgender. And if you don't have the money to transition or you just aren't ready to transition. You still count and you are still valid.

Gender fluid just means that you identify as a Male and a Female from what you call yourself and wear. Clothes don't have gender but in this world to most people they do. Nonbinary, you don't call yourself a Male or a Female. You use They/them-Zir/Zih. I wish the world can be more excepting of things like this. Honestly, I think it's neat. I don't have much on this. Just let people be. If you're not bleeding or dying then leave it alone.
[You made it!!]

Eunice turns to us from the tv with a bar of chocolate in her mouth. "Gary's going crazy. I have to help Pete watch him. Remember, how he's blackmailing Petra? They can't have their secret spilled." Zoe told us about what Timothy went through. He's building up a relationship and being the only few people he trusts is a big thing. It means a lot for Timothy and us breaking it down will land us in the hospital and him in jail. It's not right. He deserves better. Gloria squeezes herself between Pinky and Zoe. "If he tells anyone about Petra, I say we jump him. Petra cares deeply about us and we would be awful people. She has been traumatized and hurt enough. All of that ends here. And we will make Bullworth a safe place for her and people just like her." That's right!!