Clalec: Single Life (Book 4)

Chapter 5 - Apart

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Clary POV

I spent the rest of the day and night with Alec. Of course we couldn't go out because of the risk of me being seen so we spent the day watching films and cuddling.

When I woke up the next morning Alec was still fast asleep as I sat up in bed. Our clothes were scattered all over the floor, of course we didn't just sleep ;)

I felt Alec's arm tugging me back down and looked over. He had one eye open lazily, looking at me

"Sleep" he whispered "we only have a few more hours"

I lay back down, my head on his chest, and he wrapped his arms around me. I revelled in the warmth and felt him plant a light kiss on my forehead

I glanced to the side and looked at the tattoo on Alec's chest. Just one word to remember our little girl. Cecily.

I lightly traced my finger over it, following each letter before resting my hand on his chest. I wanted to stay here forever. I wanted to hear the sounds of New York outside as my children started screaming in the apartment, waking and Alec and I up. I wanted to be our bed, in our bedroom and walk out as my little boy and girl ran into my arms

But I couldn't.

I tried going back to sleep. To just be grateful that I was with Alec at all right now. But I couldn't do it. My anxiety got the better of me and I started over thinking it again. I shut my eyes willing myself to go to sleep but it wouldn't happen. Silent tears started to fall down my face and land on Alec's chest

He shifted slightly before tightening his arms around me and kissing my forehead

"I..." I couldn't get any words and fell silent again

"I know" he whispered as I turned around and buried my head in his neck, unable to stop the tears

After a few minutes I managed to calm myself down a little. I looked up at Alec as he smiled at me and tucked a stray hair behind my ear

"This sucks" I whispered. We both laughed quietly and he nodded

"I know it does" he replied "and we're probably going to feel like shit for a while. But..."

"But we have to keep going" I finished for him. I knew he didn't want to say it. He didn't want to say what we both knew. We we're going to be apart for a long time and we just had to get through it. There was no other way

We spent the rest of the morning in bed, on Netflix and before I knew it our time was up.

We both got dressed and Alec collected his things before looking back at me

"So... I guess this...."

"No" he cut me off. He pulled me into his arms and gave me one of the best kisses I've ever had

"No goodbyes" he stated "because it sounds like the end. And there's no way in hell that this is our end"

"Okay" I agreed "no goodbyes"

He pulled me closer into his chest and my arms snaked around his waist. As he hugged me tightly I closed my eyes and tried to memorise everything. His smell, his touch, his warmth

He let go of me and I felt slightly cold again. I took a deep breath and tried to shake off this horrible feeling

Alec gently grabbed my chin and kissed me softly before leaning his forehead against mine