Overprotective

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3 and half year ago

-Hi Innie! I was thinking and do you want to go out together?

Small smile on his lips after this words. Nervously playing with rings on his fingers. Shy eyes trying to avoid mines.  

-Sure hyung, maybe we can go to this cinema, I heard there's new great movie

-Great idea! What about Friday after school?

-I would love to.

I thought that's one of the best moments in my life. Finally someone giving me attention I needed. This could be a start of something beautiful...

3 and half year ago

-Mom, dad, I'm home!

-Jeongin we have to talk, come here for a minute.

-What happened?

-We were searching your room and found some inappropriate things.

-...

-How long is it going on son?

-...couple of weeks now

-WHAT?!

-...

-THAT'S IT, YOUR GROUNDED

-BUT WHY?

-YOU CAN'T BE GAY, IT'S JUST A PHASE, AGE UP JEONGIN!

-I LOVE HIM, SO SHUT UP

After this I got beaten up for a first time in my life. My first time was special, because it was for a specific reason. Not couse ''I'm annoying'', ''It's my fault'', ''I'm disobeying brat'', but for being gay. Back then I prayed for someone to help me, and I got the help, but everything got it's price

Random memory

-Innie you really should try this skirt on you

-I don't know hyunggg, I'm not comfortable in it

-Innie pleasee~~ 

-aish ok, but only because I love you 

After I got changed in the short pink skirt and white  long sleeved crop top we went out to meet with Felix and Minsung.

...

-G'day mate how ya doin?

-We're good, thanks. How about ya'll?

-Good, thanks. So, shall we go now?

-Lead the way haha

I didn't know where were we going, Hyunjin told me it's a secret. I remember how happy and excited I was feeling back then.

After about 20 minute walk we arrived at our destination. Oceanarium.
It was truly beautiful, being able to see all of this animals. It was pretty dark here but I wasn't scared, because Hyunjin was holding my hand all the time. After this we went to this small, cute restaurant. 

-Innie what do you want?

-Same as you hyungie!

-Ughhh how your boyfriend is soo cute Hyunjin? Jisung why can't  you be this cute?

-hahaha

Laughing together in nice atmosphere was like dreams come true, I wish it longed forever. His hands intertwined with mine, feeling of safety.

random memory

-ngggh, mmmh~

-Innie shut it, I'm not letting you go now

-mmmh~

-I said shut it. I can't even understand you.

Basement. My most hated place in our home. He was usually punishing me here after getting extreme mad or drunk. This time it was both.

-MMMH~

-I SAID SHUT UP

Kick on my stomach almost made me almost throw up, but I had gag so I couldn't. How ironic. Another kick on my head, then arms, legs, until all of my senses were gone numb. After this he just left my body and went for another drink. Small sobs made me gag, this time throwing up. Sour taste in my mouth made me cry even harder, of course I haven't vomit food, I haven't eaten for days.

Somebody please help me, take me away from here.