Bruises [L.S]

shots n tattoos

TW: self harm, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders, abuse, depression

take photoshop away from us my god

this is lowkey a filler chapter for the most part.

well technically not to be fair it makes the story move foward so

enjoy xx

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HARRYS POV:

"here" niall said handing me a rum n coke

"thanks" i smiled. we turned back to the telly which louis had just turned on.

15:37 15:36 15:35 15:34 it read out

"fifteen and a half minutes till the new year" liam screamed at the top of his lungs

"liam please calm down" maya laughed at him "you said you wouldnt get too drunk"

"i guess i changed my mind" he winked taking a sip of his drink.

"imma get some air" i told them as i walked out to the front porch drink in hand.

"hi cutie" i heard a familiar voice say

"lou how many drinks have you had" i laughed out catching him as he almost fell.

"two beers" he stated "i just slipped on ice" i saw how far back his eyes rolled back.

"im just asking" i laughed as he wrapped his arms around my waist

"you know uh we never really talked about what is going to happen after the break" he sighed

"arent you moving into the apartment on the third?" i asked looking at him confused. "thats before the break ends"

"not that, i mean going back to school"

"oh" i looked down at my feet "i completely forgot about that"

"i know, i did too" a heavy silence fell over us.

neither of us wanted to talk about this subject, but we knew we had to. "im still struggling to figure out what my sexuality is" he spoke after a few minutes

"thats okay baby, it took me a while to come to terms with being unlabeled. i still struggle to put myself in a box"

"i know but this is just all so new" he pushed his fringe out of his face "you know never thought id be dating a guy"

"hey dont knock it till you try it" i nudged him

"i think i like it so far" he nudged back

"good cause i do too" i told him, a layer of blush covering my cheeks. louis looked up at me giving me a warm smile.

"look i know its scary but you got this okay?"

"we got this" he reassured "but we still have a week to figure it out"

i nodded as leaned got up on his tippy toes leaning in for a kiss, which u gladly accepted "ahem" a voice coughed walking up the porch steps

"its five to where have you been mate?" louis asks pulling away

"im here now, i just need a few shots" zayn said very cold heartedly.

we all went into the house, zayn pushed passed everyone. which wasnt many people since it was just the group and went to go take shots with niall.

"im gonna get another drink, you want one?" i ask lou, he shook his head no and i wondered into my kitchen.

"three, two, one go!" niall said downing the first few shots with zayn.