unexpected incidents

part nine

<pre style="line-height: 17px; white-space: normal; color: #2a2a2a; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;">I'd been at work since 9am, now was 12 but I felt awful, headache as well as a stomach ache, luckily the shop wasn't busy and the other 2 in the staff told me I should head back home, which I did seeing as if I stayed at work I probably would be close to death. Maybe not, but still...... I couldn't stay at work another four hours.

I drove back home, taking a tablet as soon as I got in and a glass of water, before bringing my duvet downstairs to sit in front of the sofa with a cup of tea. I hadn't got a TV in my room yet, my room was pretty basic.... A bed, a wardrobe, dressing table etc, still needed to buy everything else. 

I felt slightly better already, yet hormones took over and I was just thinking about life. Maybe Peterborough was better than London? Maybe I shouldn't have moved? I had such high expectations of living in London, me and Jess thought it'd be amazing. For her, maybe but not me, not yet anyway. She's more sociable and has made so many new friends already, tonight, she was going out with one of them, then there's me who's made no new friends, if I was gonna end up being like this then Peterborough was better, I had Ria and all my other friends, as well as family. I was over thinking yep, seeing as I'd only been here just over a week, but I was always like this, over thinking then that puts myself into a bad mood. Stopping my line of thought, I heard a knock at the door. I quickly looked in the mirror sighing because my eyes were red from where I had been crying......... Bit over the top yep but this is what I'm like when in a bad mood. I quickly wiped my eyes and smiled, opening the door seeing Aston, "oh, hey"...."I've got your jumper, you left it in my car yesterday"....."Ohh okay, thank you" I half smiled. "What's up babes?!" He asked obviously could tell I was a bit upset, "nothing"..."are you still like this ash? still don't let anyone in? keep everything to yourself?" He asked calmly, letting out a little sigh he knew exactly what I was like, it took years for me to ever open up to anyone and the only person I opened up too about things was him. But this was years ago. I didn't know what to reply but said "I'm fine!" probably very un-convincingly. "I know you're not, you've been crying... I can tell" I sighed after he said that. "I'm fine honestly, don't worry" I faked a smile, "well can I at least come inside for a bit then, make sure you're ok?"....."If you really wish" I muttered, him following me into the living room and sitting down beside me on the sofa. "Where's your friend then? Jess?"..."work, well I dunno, might've gone out with her new friends, not sure"...."Oooh right! How's work then?"..."Well I came home ill today at lunchtime, but other than that, it's fine"..."Ah you alright now?! And goood, nice people there?"..."Yeah I'm ok I guess, and well yeah, they're nice but I'm rather socially awkward and they already have friends so yeah" I laughed a little, "do you like it here anyway then?" He was asking so many questions, "hmmm guess so, don't know really, I miss everyone back home, sort of lonely living here as well, Jess is always working but yeah it doesn't matter" I half smiled. "Is that what's upset you?" How did he always work out what was up with me?! I stayed silent seeing as it sounded so stupid, "babe?"...."Basically yeah, sounds stupid though I know" I tried to laugh, "its not stupid, don't worry! I remember when I first moved here, despite having the boys here, I missed all of you, and my family, but I soon got used to it, but then again, that was cause x factor was the next step and I was straight into the public eye" he explained, "you had the boys though, I've got Jess and she's already out with her new mates which are probably 10x better than I am" I laughed, "you're always putting yourself down, stop it! but anyway, you've got me, I'm near by now!" he smiled, "how far from here do you actually live?" I asked, didn't have a clue where exactly he lived. "I live literally 2 roads away"..."Really?!"...."Yeppppp" he smiled, "that's made me a bit happier" I giggled seeing as I knew I had someone near me, "glad it has! seriously, if you need me, anytime, I'm just round the corner"...."This is like de ja vu of the conversations we used to have" I laughed, "but thank you" I added, "anytime" he smiled before saying he best leave. "You doing anything tomorrow?"...."Work till 4, but nothing after"...."Well I'll text you, could meet up, after all, gotta catch up on all the years we missed" he laughed, "sounds goooood!" I smiled giving him a hug before watching him leave.

He was right, I never opened up to anyone and if I did, it would only ever be to him. I was glad to have him back in my life as a friend again and see him regularly. We lived 2 roads from each other now which was mad, guessing we'd be bumping into each other a lot then. It had made me feel better speaking to him, knowing I had him as a friend here and I wasn't completely on my own.

*bit of a random text, but just wanna say thank yoooouuuuu for earlier, some how, just like you used too, you've cheered me up I guess! merrygolds magic ayyy ;) haha! Xx* I text him a few hours after, *I'm glaaaaaad babes!!!!! Now keep smiling cos u've got me here at leeeeast!!! And you'll make new friends I'm sure!!! : p Definitely my magic!! ;) hahahaha!! Ax* was the text I received a minute later, it made me smile not gonna lie. "Merrygold's magic" was always what we joked about seeing as we were such close friends and just like now, he'd always cheer me up, he used to piss about telling me he was "magic".... Yep nice one Ast, nice. </pre>