Before the Last Dance
Kindness glows. • A retelling of my story "The Lucky One" from Dan's POV.
Kindness glows. • A retelling of my story "The Lucky One" from Dan's POV.
Dan Howell is not a happy person. He relies on any type of high to get him through each day and he's never been in love with any girl he's dated. His parents want him to marry his girlfriend of two years, but he can't bring himself to marry someone he doesn't love, and who doesn't love him. He meets a man named Phil...
"because as you know all too well, my dear phil, i sometimes want you to just drop dead." "ah, but you see, the feeling is mutual, howell." |serialkiller!phil x depressed!dan| |lowercase intended|
When Dan's lungs are filled with smoke, Phil is a breath of fresh air. warnings: drug use disclaimer: i do not condone/encourage drug use.
Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his...
{{ part two of psychedelia }} It's been two years since Dan moved out of the apartment to go to a rehabilitation centre, and in that space of time he's heard nothing from Phil. Not even a "hello." Dan's scared that Phil's moved on and forgotten about him, and since they both stopped vlogging Dan doesn't know what's ha...
"Are you insane or are you just that broken?" he whispered, his face inches from mine. "I'm a little bit of both," I admitted, looking into his eyes. "A trip into my mind would be a trip into a nightmare."
"you've been drinking like the world was gonna end." "for me, it did." - where a fighter with anger issues meets an strangely-alluring artist [lowercase intended]
Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?
"you miss it; the bone-chilling thrill from the narrow escapism of outsmarting cops and the head-spinning adrenaline rush of hiding out in hotel room after hotel room. the blood-rushing high of pulling the trigger on your victim, just to go and do it all over again the next day. but you don't just miss it, you desire...
"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy str...
Dan Howell Phill Lester That's everything that's important. (Or: Dan is the weird kid that dresses in pastels and hands out flowers to people for no apparent reason and Phil is the leather jacket wearing art kid who pretends to be immortal through his drawings. Despite the odds, they're best friends, and nobody quite...
a daring 17 year old boy becomes flustered over a married man fem!dan daddy AF!phil
" Phil Lester is on the edge of suicide. " or in which Dan can see everyone's deepest secret simply by looking at them.
in which a demon named dan accidentally falls in love with an angel named phil. {phan au} highest ranking- #27 in danisnotonfire