Ocdawareness Stories

I was desperate. Frustrated. At a loss and almost spiteful. Sometimes, I still feel like I drive myself crazy reaching for some form of validation. Isolation is an intense and harrowing feeling. And yet, somehow, this accumulation of emotions led to me creating this WATTPAD story. A high schooler (at the time) in the pandemic. I wanted to know that I wasn't alone. Wanted to see some form of understanding. Wanted to be known by myself. I fixated on the internet, turning to various sites and media to find solace. Yet, it just didn't scratch right. It felt like no one was talking about what I was going through, like the stigma had far too much power for me to even know what I was going through myself. This is what motivated me to write. Gave me the courage to share my experiences. Having the courage to share so that someone alike to me will see they aren't alone. To humanize what is a very human experience. So, welcome and enjoy! This story may just become a collection if applicable..? Since, I don't believe I'll focus on my OCD as a center so much. *Title art is not mine and came from a Pinterest google image I found* TW: Sexual, infectious , Superstitious, pedofilic, and other subtype intrusive thoughts OCD graphic images described. Mentions: Sexual assault, depression, anxiety, lgbtq+

She only ever wanted two things: to heal her heart and find her purpose. Goofy and lively with her close friends, quiet and guarded with the rest of the world - she's a walking contradiction. Beneath her smile, she battles OCD, self-doubt, and the weight of her faith. She wears her hijab and niqab with pride, doing her best to be a good Muslim, even when her heart feels heavy with imperfection. When she lands a dream internship in Turkey, she sees it as her chance to escape, to finally breathe. But life abroad isn't as simple as she imagined. From awkward office interactions to the struggle of balancing her deen with daily life, she feels like she's constantly at war with herself. And then there's him - the coworker who's kind, respectful, and somehow always there when she needs someone. She tries to keep her distance, but fate keeps pulling them together. What happens when the man she thought was her safe space is hiding a dangerous secret? When love collides with faith and danger, will she fight for her heart or walk away to protect her soul? A slow-burn, emotional rollercoaster about self-discovery, faith, friendship, and a love story with a dark twist. #FaithJourney #HijabiProtagonist #NiqabiProtagonist #MentalHealth #OCDStruggles #SlowBurnRomance #DoubleLife #MafiaRomance #TurkishDrama #ComingOfAge #SelfDiscovery #InternshipAbroad #Mafia vibes

In school, Keegan is seen as a strange boy with amazing talent. He is the most prized swimmer on the swim team, but he refuses to acknowledge the possibility of a bright, successful future. He won't swim for anyone but his mother, Sara. Sara works hard to support herself and her son, with her husband, Daniel, in jail. Daniel was a pharmacist who got caught stealing narcotics from his own business, and won't tell his wife why he did it. The only way to keep Sara and Keegan safe is to keep his mouth shut. Osric was an old "friend" of Daniel's, who threatened to kill his family if he didn't bring him drugs. The Ravens, a gang in L.A., want to pay Daniel back for something he did as a teenager, using Osric as a chess piece. {Slow Updates}

This is a poem I wrote while trying to write an English essay (ironically about poetry), but clearly my brain had other plans as this came out instead... It's about my ocd and how I felt at the time