She wanted revenge for her for her sister and she knew the perfect way to get it so that she would hurt the people that did them wrong. But it didn't turn out how she thought it would. She wanted to do it then just go on with her life. Her and her best friend would find her sister then leave to never be heard from again. But that didn't go accoriding to plan she isn't just running for her children she is running for herself. She just couldn't handle the fear of losing herself of being hurt over and over again. So she made a decision for herself to not let love in until being scared almost lost her her life