Finding myself through all the pain

Loss is nothing new to me, I have been losing people before I even knew how to write my name, Darkness was my only friend until I got a taste of light. I lost both my parents and two of my siblings. It's true when they say you can never get used to pain, and once you feel it seems to be the only thing you feel. I'm 22 years old but I'm already running on empty🤦‍♀️I hope things are gonna change with time.My name is Pearl Grootbom, I have two siblings who are still alive but soon I might have one left, my mom passed away when I was five from cancer and my dad died 2 years ago from diabetes and also my older brother died last year he shot himself in the head. Im studying Accounting and this year its my last year from finishing my first qualification and I plan to study further. I'm currently single because I barely have time to focus on that department and this is my story.