Consume Me Whole
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When Montgomery de la Cruz's father dies, he and his sister Estela are forced into the custody of their estranged mother. Now trapped between grief, anger, and self-loathing, Monty begins therapy for his explosive temper, struggling to make sense of his identity. Winston is by his side, determined to help Monty confront the terrifying truth of his queerness. But love, like hunger, gnaws at both of them - slowly, insidiously - until there is nothing left to give but themselves.
Trigger Warnings:
• Themes of abuse (emotional and physical)
• Discussion of addiction (alcoholism)
• Anger management issues and violence
• Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED)
• References to self-harm
• Complex relationships with family and parental figures
• Exploration of grief and loss
• Cannibalism as a metaphor (graphic imagery related to love and hunger)
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this is sort of a self-indulgent splurge fic that i've been ranting to my girlfriend about, which is all about navigating the messy complexities of love, anger, and metaphors of cannibalism-because who doesn't want to explore love as a feast, am i right?
also, is the 13rw fandom even alive anymore? if you're still hanging around, welcome back! i hope you enjoy this journey of healing and heartache as much as i enjoyed writing it. this is meant to be a fix-it fic and it does include two original characters, as well as some ooc moments that i tried my best to align with canon.
please heed the trigger warnings as they're mentioned very frequently throughout this fic!
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