Tealgirl1

Today I was siting alone at my sisters birthday eating cake and working on a story of mine. My mom comes over and starts making a poem about me being alone and enjoying it. She trailed off at the end because she couldn't think of a word that would rhyme. Finally she came up with the word queer. So she said I was really queer. I died laughing and she quickly explained how queer used to mean weird. I just continued laughing for like thirty seconds. Finally she left saying "You are queer though." She fully meant weird, but she's got no clue I'm pan. I had the time of my life.

Y'all. I am so angry right now. I missed the perfect coming out moment!!!!! 
          Okay so just recently I finally acknowledged the fact I'm not straight and I'm now identifying as pan. Well I decided not to tell my family or friends for the time being. But today we were in a class meeting and one of the teachers was talking and said I think they're coming out. This was completely unrelated by my friend leans over and whispers "I interpreted that differently." And I laughed then jokingly leaned over and went: "By the way..." And she gave me this surprised look and I told her I was kidding. And she said if I wasn't she would be surprised but she wouldn't care. And I looked at her and went wait really? And she said yup she didn't really care. And jokingly I said ouch, thats mean. And she said I mean I would except you. And for a second I almost just leaned over and said I may not be gay but I am pan. But I overthought it and I was still kinda shocked by the fact she would be fine with it and I missed my chance.... T.T
          Y'all the universe handed me my coming out moment and I failed.
          Any ideas for how to come out in a kinda funny way?

One of the funniest and dumbest things I have seen was a close friend of mine ordering food. She doesnt like using her real name so she always says Selene when they ask for her name. Someone else asked why she uses a fake name and she basically said stranger danger. Ironically she doesnt even go by her birth name she goes by a random nickname and she always uses a credit card, or on school trips the school card they give us with our names and school registered. So while she tells a random cashier a fake name they still get her real name and school half the time or they get her family credit card info. So giving them the fake name is kinda useless especially cause we then talk to her and use her real name right in front of the employees. On top of that it's a fake name so she doesn't recognize it. So there is the employee staring right at her and repeating her name till one of us gets her attention. I literally now keep tabs on a fake name whenever we go out to eat cause she won't. She uses the same name every time how has it not registered in her brain yet T.T

My favorite thing to do when I get unmotivated with a story I'm writing is have Chatgpt write fanfiction about it. There is nothing more satisfying than reading my own ships play out.

Y'all I forgot why I don't talk to my parents about problems. I got into a huge fight with a friend and I thought it was resolved but a week later everything went to hell and I'm trying to fix this mess. Made the mistake of telling my mom the details, She kept interrupting my rant to try and give me advice, by saying what she would do and what I should do (I know she is trying to help but I just want to vent and she and I are very different in certain aspects so the I would do this is pretty invalid). I mentioned the fight was over text and she interrupted me to go See phones are bad they cause fights and on and on it which was exactly what I needed while confiding in her. I'm a fast talker and I talk even faster when I vent so she kept telling me to take deep breaths and calm down...she thought I was having an anxiety attack while I stood there looking and acting fine just talking quickly, then she told me to calm down cause I was giving her anxiety. Then when I told her I was having some problems with a friendship she told me to stop being friends with them. These are two of my closets friend one going on five years. of it and I don't want top just throw it away cause of a bump in the road. Then I told her I started having out with more memvers of our friend group rather than my best friend all the time, she interrupts me to go just like I told you too. Acing like she was proving point. She told me two months ago to hand out more with the rest of the girls in my grade, rather than just my friends and we go into an argument about it. I started hanging out with my friend group more months ago. Not only did she forge what we argued about in the first place, but she acted all smug like she was right and got her way...when she didn't.
          In summery, I now remember why I don't talk to my mom about emotional problems half the time.

( # ) I'm baffled. I really suck at following people who actually interact with me, lmao.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!

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I spent a solid hour today having Chatgpt give me random sentences so that I could refigure them to match a specific characters dialogue and personality. All of this because my friend betrayed me (it was a random dumb thing), and now I am taking revenge by impersonating Team Rocket in all my text messages for the next week. Send help.

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