@Chickengirl250 idk, I guess Kirby and vocaloid are helping, and so is taking out my anger and sadness on inanimate objects (for example, last week I went to my lil cousins birthday party, and when there was a pinata and was my turn to try to break it I started beating it with a bat, I did a good amount of damage to it tho :D, but my older bro is the who finished it off)