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@sakiforsodani okay so wtf i'm crying, thank you, aking mahal, your words mean so much more to me than you know <3
            
            i've been so in my head lately with this upcoming chapter that i was starting to forget why i started/published this story in the first place---to share my imagination with those who were willing to step into the worlds i've created.
            
            i've just been so worried about letting my readers down, that i've been losing my creative side, i started getting frustrated and mad with myself...
            
            but you're right, my little moons are my little moons, and you, aking mahal, are my brightest moon of all, or perhaps, my Sun, because the moon looks to the sun for light <3 i wrote this for you and them, and i'll continue to write for you and for everyone still willing to stay and read what i put out :)
            
            thank you again, aking mahal, aking araw, i hope you know no matter what, i will always be here to read and support your work, that is something you will never ever have to doubt xx
            
            and maybe...I'm sorry if this is a little forward, or even weird, but if you have any socials, I have a twitter and tt account under this same user if you ever want to dm :)
            
            but if not, that's okay! i'm still very grateful for you and your words, and i can't wait to read more of your work soon xx

Personally, I don't really find my writing that great, and I don't reassure myself much because I struggle to see myself as someone who's "good enough." But I keep writing because I find comfort... the reassurance I need from the readers who comment, they are the ones who actually feel the emotions I tried to convey, the ones who get pulled into the things I thought weren't good enough.
            
            The people who were there from the start, the ones who still read even if I don’t update regularly, the new followers, the people requesting for more… they’re the reason I keep going even when I doubt myself.
            
            And you’re one of them. So… thank you, mahal. :)
            
            Anyway, yeah. That’s how I reassure myself. It’s hard to believe you’re good at something when your own mind is your number one enemy, but I hope you know your little moons became your little moons for a reason. We became your readers for a reason. x 

@moonlightr0gue Hi, mahal!
            
            For me, being insecure... we can't really get rid of that mindset easily, so I can't just go on and say, "Oh, just go with the flow," without actually explaining what I mean.
            
            I do remind myself of this, "If I think that my work is good enough for me, then what's wrong with sharing it with others who might also find it interesting enough to read?"
            
            Most of the time, I do get insecure about how I write. But I also tell myself that I write that way because that's how I imagined it. How it played in my head, how it felt. And honestly, having mistakes only makes your work yours. Even the small grammar ones are... unique. They bother you, sure, but they're part of what gives your writing its own shape.
            
            Insecurity, for me, is a cycle. It won't go away just because I say so, and even if it did, it won't disappear completely. I mean, here I am updating books, and I still feel that way.
            
            But whenever my writing doesn't look good enough for me, I focus on life instead. I use my phone, play games, work, distract myself... maybe that's the reason why I do take too long to write. But when I do come back, I read my work and think, "...this is actually kind of good... a little bit."
            
            And it's funny, because you end up getting immersed too. You laugh at scenes, at your own jokes, feel hurt, feel the thrill, ... all those little emotions you wanted your readers to feel. 
            
            I do think that if you stare at your writing too much and revise it a lot, it gets harder to keep up and enjoy the story as... a story. So stepping away for a little bit, it helps, for me. (1/2)

@slut_for_megara I will! But I'm not entirely sure when, though :' Thank you for reading x

@moonlightr0gue Of course, mahal. I'll make one for you :)

@ sakiforsodani  TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED FOR THAT MASTERPIECE

@sakiforsodani TAKE YOUR TIME WE WILL SIT WAIT FOR YOU

@idgaf-abt_users I can't tell if that's an EPIC reference or not... 

@ sakiforsodani  IS THAT SOME FORM OF FORESHADOWING?!?
            btw don't be sorry, it was worth it cuz it was fire so..

@slut_for_megara Oh shit, I’m so sorry :' But on the bright side, nobody dies in the fic! Yay... I think?

@sakiforsodani YES QUEEN

@sakiforsodani OH YEAH