"You know sometimes you just UGH," I heard someone yell. Groggily I opened my eyes and glanced around the room. Ariana was no longer sitting beside me.
"IM JUST WHAT?!" I heard Ariana scream.
"A pain in the goddamn ass!" Kelsey came storming out of the room. Without even glancing at me she slammed the front door shut. I sat there stunned confused as to what s going on. Ariana stood in the living room door was a upset look on her face. I got up quickly and pulled her in for a hug. She hugged me back instantly. I didn't say anything instead I stood there silently knowing full well she wouldn't want to talk. That was just how she was when upset it was better to say nothing and wait for her to come to you. She would never talk about things unless she was ready too that was how she worked. Sometimes it was very frustrating but I'd rather her tell me things that bugged her on hear time then never.
"Wanna watch batman?" I questioned breaking the silence. Ariana looked up at me forcing a smile she nodded.
I followed her over to the couch and threw the movie in. Ariana sat silently watching it. I wrapped my arms round her shoulder gently stroking her hair. The front door swung open. Jenny walked over to Ariana and pulled her into a hug. The two sat there for a few minutes not saying a single word just hugging. Jenny pulled away and kissed Ariana on the cheek.
"She'll be back. She loves you." Jenny said reassuringly. That was another thing about Jenny that was worth admiring. She always looks at the positive even if its hard. But she had a point Kelsey would be back her and Ariana loved and made each other happy. Ariana leaned her head against Jenny's shoulder and the movie ended. I put in another movie and got into the kitchen. I began to cook up something quick for the girls knowing if I didn't cook them something they wouldn't have eaten.
"I'm heading out" I stated simply. Ariana glanced up at me almost concerned.
"Where you going?" She asked curiously.
"Just out ill be back later I promise." With that I slipped on my shoes and left. I drove, I really didnt know where I was going I just wanted to go. I needed to get out and clear my thoughts. Lately more then ever I've felt this overwhelming loneliness and sadness. I don't know why I felt this way. Maybe it was knowing i could never have Ariana. Maybe I missed my family. I pulled up outside the cemetery and sighed. Getting out I trudged through the grass. I walked until I came to a small little gave stone. I sat down in front of it. The name read 'Sara Johnson 2006-2012'. I felt tears sting my eyes. Maybe the sorrow was the hidden pain I nevEr showed when my sister passed. She was only six years old I remember the day she passed clear as day.
*
"Nico!" My mom yelled out as I walked through the front door.
"What?!"
"Can you go wake up your sister? She's not up yet and we've got to leave soon." Without being told again I walked upstairs into my little sisters room. There was no mistaking this was a little girls room. The walls were pink and princess stickers scattered around them. My sister was in love with princesses, she believed that Ariana was a princess. Every time she saw her she would call Her princes Ariana. I walked over to the tiny bed and pulled down the pink blanket. My sister laid there peacefully holding her favourite stuffed bear close to her chest. I gently shook her awake. My hand froze as it met my sisters cold skin.
"Sara? Sara?" I asked giving her a light shake. She didnt even flinch "Sara?" My hart was pounding in my ears. I grabbed my sisters shoulders and gave her another shake this time slightly more aggressive. I picked my sister up, her head fell back as her arms hung down lifeless letting her bear fall to the ground. My heart was pounding everything else was a blur. I don't remember calling out. I don't remember yelling for help. I don't remember my mother or the paramedics coming in. It felt as tho this was just a bad nightmare. None of it was real.
