It starts with neglect

Chapter 8

??? POV

"People are judgeful. They judge based on backgrounds, based on appearances, based on voices, based on mental and physical health and.... everything," he said bitterly to himself. 

People forget that he was also human. He had emotions like others. However, his insecurities were disregarded. His favourite person encouraged him to carry on. His idol. The one who helped him embrace his weaknesses.

Flashback:

'My heart stopped...I was maybe nine or ten~' 

"Looking back, that's when I began to worry about what other people thought of me and started seeing myself through their eyes.

I stopped looking up at the stars at night.

I stopped daydreaming. 

I tried to jam myself into moulds that other people made.

Soon, I began to shut out my own voice and started to listen to the voices of others. No one called out my name, and neither did I.

My heart stopped and my eyes closed shut. 

So, like this, I, we, all lost our names. We became like ghosts.

I had one sanctuary, and that was music.

There was a small voice in me that said, 'Wake up, man, and listen to yourself!'

But it took me a long time to hear music calling my name.

Even after making the decision to join BTS, there were hurdles. Most people thought we were hopeless. Sometimes, I just wanted to quit.

I think I was very lucky that I didn't give it all up.

I'm sure that I, and we, will keep stumbling and falling. We have become artists performing in huge stadiums and selling millions of albums.

But I am still an ordinary, twenty-four-year-old guy.

If there's anything that I've achieved, it was only possible because I had my other BTS members by my side, and because of the love and support of our ARMY fans.

Maybe I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday's me is still me.

I am who I am today, with all my faults.

Tomorrow I might be a tiny bit wiser, and that's me, too.

These faults and mistakes are what I am, making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life.

I have come to love myself for who I was, who I am, and who I hope to become.

I would like to say one last thing.

After releasing the "Love Yourself" albums and launching the "Love Myself" campaign, we started to hear remarkable stories from our fans all over the world, how our message helped them overcome their hardships in life and start loving themselves.

These stories constantly remind us of our responsibility.

So, let's all take one more step. We have learned to love ourselves, so now I urge you to "speak yourself".

I would like to ask all of you. What is your name? What excites you and makes your heart beat?

Tell me your story. I want to hear your voice, and I want to hear your conviction. 

No matter who you are, where you're from, your skin colour, gender identity: speak yourself.

Find your name, find your voice by speaking yourself.

I'm Kim Namjoon, RM of BTS.

I'm a hip-hop idol and an artist from a small town in Korea.

Like most people, I made many mistakes in my life.

I have many faults and I have many fears, but I am going to embrace myself as hard as I can, and I'm starting to love myself, little by little.

What is your name? Speak Yourself!"

End of Flashback:

That was his idol.

Always encouraging him... but of course, he didn't know who he was.

He didn't know the world of witches and wizards. The world of purebloods. He didn't know him. He didn't know the son and heir of one of the most respected pureblood families.

Perhaps that's why he adored him. He didn't know who he was and yet he said those words. 

Thank you Kim Namjoon. Without you, I wouldn't be here. Thank you for speaking the words I didn't know I needed to hear. Thank you. Thank you...

A/N: YAH WHAT DO YOU THINK!!!

BTW this is a real speech that Kim Namjoon (#Namjoonforpresident) had said and it was truly motivating xx

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Assassin Out