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For as long as i could remember, i never had an interest in boys. I can remember all my friends spilling about how they had a crush on this boy, and i never understood what they meant.
I remember always faking crushes, or more convincing myself this are what feelings are like. When in reality i was collected more weight to be placed upon my shoulders for years to come.
I would go through cycles; One week liking this boy, telling my friends, telling him, him rejecting me, then finally me picking someone new. This went on for a while, during quarantine is when i had a real realization.
I've known i liked girls for some time. Though i was never sure what to do with that information at such a young age, so like many other kids, i pushed it away, out as bisexual to my close friends, but never talking about women.
Over quarantine i started to think about how i felt about woman, compared to men. Thinking how all the guys i told myself i had a crush on, i really just thought would be cool to hang out with. But when it came to girls, i would get flustered, easily. As well as losing my ability to speak the english language completely, which especially left me with giggles and then running to the bathroom.
i was firm that i was a lesbian after doing research, and taking time to really think everything over, i came out to close friends the next month.
Time skip to November, and i came out to my parents and family.
As of now, i couldn't be happier with my sexuality, and i know little me, is proud.
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authors note:
i felt it was important to wright something about discovering who you are, and coming out. please know you are valid no matter if you are out or not. i hope this story helps anyone that's questioning their sexuality at all, and helps them realize that even if they are already out, things can change and that's perfectly okay !
don't forget to drink water and eat loves, and have a happy holidays :)
xx
